**UPDATED WEEKLY - SATURDAYS**
Today is the first day of the rest of your life.
Now that we have all the dramatics out of the way, I'm jumping on this diet. Started today, I'm at 360 calories so far. I will try to post daily at the end of the day with calories and how it goes.
So what if I'm not starting this on a Monday like all the sheets say. I'm mad at the world so lets get this....bred... haha see what I did there.
Color codes *updated weekly*: (cuz lets be honest, my calorie-deprived brain is gonna need all the help it can get)
800 cal days (1 total)
500 cal Days (4 total) 1 left
450 cal days (2 total) 1 left
400 cal days (4 total) 1 left
350 cal days (3 total) 1 left
300 cal days (6 total) 2 left
250-200 cal days (16 total) 2 left
Under 200 *excluding fasts* (8 total) 1 left
FASTS (6 total) 1 left
Ok this is gonna be fun. next week I am slated to go to a conference with yoga, crossfit, and zumba instructor training, so we'll see if I die lol. Make sure to check back
EDIT: Disclaimer - for the purpose of calories and this diet, I do not count coffee creamer or honey in my beverages unless there is a significant amount.
*I think I have decided that I'm just going to edit this original post, so there's no scrolling through to get to the daily reports.*
The first day went pretty well, no cravings or intense hunger. I even felt full halfway through what I had put together for dinner, so that was nice. But I broke and mis-proportioned some ice cream later in the night (I am such a night eater and an insomniac it's not even funny) so I went about 240 cals over my limit.
I had two thoughts about this: at first I figured if I went over on calories I would just subtract them from the next day, but I almost think that would encourage me to just use less restrictive days as "calorie banks" (if that makes sense) and defeats the purpose of the set limits of calories.
sooooo... *warning, long explanation of my restriction rules and rituals, skip to stats at end of paragraph if you get bored* I'm deciding that I have one "cheat day" and I'm just not going to worry about it rn. I mean 240 isn't going to screw up a whole lot on the first day, and I haven't been counting cals for a while so I'm getting used to it again. So I'm keeping to the structure of the diet very strictly, and if I do mess up or go over on calories I'm saving them up in a wonderful, classic ana punishment ritual. After the diet ends, I'll add up all the calories over I was (not counting today) and for every 500 cals I have to fast for a day. In a row. So if say after the 50 days in total over that time I had 750 calories over my daily allotment, then I have to fast for a day and a half after the diet which as we all know is torture in and of itself. So there, I feel sufficiently motivated.
Weight: 123lbs (56kg)
Weight loss: N/A
Negative symptoms: none
Hunger: barely noticable
Energy (out of 10): 8
Tomorrow cals: 500
Question: do y'all want me to post what i eat, or maybe just the number of calories for each food item?
*Edit: the great catch-up post of 2021*
So I was crazy busy this week, I was at a camp. And while there was a lot of physical exercise, they provided all our meals and we weren't really allowed to have our own food or go out (no time, and no where to store or cook anything.) On top of that, I didn't have any time to post, so I decided that there would be a huge binge week in between, and I would see how much it affects my weight. I've gone through the whole gambit of eating disorders, so it's kind of a choose your own adventure some days haha. But I decided that I would log everything as best as I could and still report it to you guys for some accountability. Then I can contrast it with the lower calorie days and at the very least it should be interesting.
This day was fine, the 500 calorie ones aren't bad. No real hunger pangs, I saw things I wanted to eat but didn't have any trouble restricting.
Weight: 122 lbs. (56 kg)
Weight loss: None
Weight gain: 1 pound
This is the day where it started getting difficult. It was the first day of my camp which is basically training for physical instructors (yoga, pilates, zumba, crossfit, etc.) so it's very physically active with sometimes limited time in between. I'm here with another one of my instructor friends who is very suspicious and all our meals are provided anyway, so I thought why not just pig out. I mean I already hate myself enough, but it would take such an exorbitant amount of work to go around all these barriers and figure out when to buy a jar of pickles and have everyone watch me eat them for four hours, why not a last hurrah.
This start day however, was only a half day and so I stuck to my 300 cals, and didn't go over! We did a series of rigorous exercise in the evening, it was grueling, someone there said they had been less out of breath on a 14er, but I got through it and didn't cheat. So I'd say it's a good day.
Weight: 120 lbs. (54.8 kg)
Weight loss: 1 pound
Weight gain: none
Negative symptoms: tiredness general
Hunger: slight hunger, noticeable
Hiatus Day 1
This was a crazy day. Honestly the next week was just crazy. I don't have a scale within access, so I won't be able to weigh myself until Saturday. I will try my best to track the calories of things I consume, during my hiatus from the diet, and then resume on next Monday with what would technically be day 4 of the diet.
The day consisted of pretty much 15 hours of lecture and physical activity. (6am-12pm, with some free time mixed in). I ended up eating a bit less than I thought I would, but still it was quite a bit and there's no way the physical activity covered it all. This week of self-loathing will be delicious, and remind me why I'm never going back to my b/p cycle of ana ever again.
Estimated weight gain: not sure yet, don't feel it on the first day
Exercise: (total hours of active physical work calculated_ 4
Notes: felt good to eat again. was getting hungry because I'd been up all night before with insomnia.
Hiatus Day 2
I started out the week relatively good. As you can see it swiftly spiraled downwards, but the first few days I was just stuffing myface and then working my ass off, my friend looked at me a little weird, but never asked a single question. I can feel after meals when I've eaten too much and I'm not used to exercising like that. It does give you more energy at some point, but the uncomfortable ness is not worth it, do not recommend.
Estimated weight gain: 2 pounds (at least)
Exercise: 5 hours
Notes: felt disgusting, low energy, what could have been sugar crashes from the introduction of so many calories into my system. Or just not used to being up that early.
*will update the rest later, much more to come*