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#1 meow925

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Posted 21 July 2021 - 03:25 AM

I've been having one lately where my last ex (pre ED) reaches out to me with concern about my weight/how low its gotten. It's completely irrational because we've been apart for two years now and I've blocked her on all social media due to how rough the breakup itself was...so of course there's no way for that to happen. I also am completely over her and have moved on mentally from the relationship? I haven't dated anyone since but for some reason this is the ONE scenario I'd pee myself happily over.

I'd love to know so I feel less weird...what are the weird situations you come up with?


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Posted 21 July 2021 - 03:52 AM

well i have this weird fantasy about having some partner of mine force feeding me, like literally shaving food on my mouth till i couldn't take it anymore and run to the bathroom to throw up

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#3 girly_girl

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Posted 21 July 2021 - 06:21 AM

i think its p normal to have fantasies about people taking care of you/being concerned. quite a few years ago i was obsessed with nicole dollangangers 'please eat' and i always imagined having a partner sing it for me in the hospital and mean all the words. course that never happened lol


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Posted 21 July 2021 - 06:26 AM

Being kidnapped and starved, then escape and be super skinny. Lol my mind is messed up.
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Posted 21 July 2021 - 08:22 AM

whenever my dance teachers say I've lost weight and compliment me, I love it. Also when they tell me I should eat my lunch- ugh SUCH a trigger for my restriction! 

 

but my fantasy is them being so worried, my parents being worried, people saying "she's too thin" and then put in hospital and semi-recover like all those thin "recovered" people out there but actually still eating miniscule amounts?? like hello my brain is discombobulated


EDNOS diagnosed (more like AN-r; can't purge for the life of me... can use laxatives though  B) does that count??)

 

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CW: 57.5kg/ 127lbs (BMI: 19.2) 

7/25/21 CW: 55.7kg/ 122.7lbs (BMI:18.7) idk how I dropped 4+ lbs in 2 days... Keto+OMAD I guess?

 

8/8/21

Whelp I'm back at 56.9kg/ 125.4lbs (BMI: 19.2).... at least my bodyfat is 22.8% now  :) UGH I need to stop cheating on Keto and stick to my damn OMAD and do my damn workouts

 

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GW3: 53kg/116.5lbs (BMI: 17.9)

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Posted 21 July 2021 - 08:25 AM

Idk I want to post something on Instagram and have old classmates be like "woah you're so small" and stuff. I also want my girlfriend to show concern about how small I'm getting because they haven't throughout the entirety of my ed even though I've almost lost 60 lbs


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#7 Sugar_Witch

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Posted 21 July 2021 - 08:51 AM

I want to visit my family and them notice how scary skinny Ive become. Ill tell them that hearing them talk about weight constantly triggers me. Then they feel guilty for body shaming my siblings and never again pressure them into losing weight, because they dont want another of thier kids to be like me.
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Posted 21 July 2021 - 08:58 AM

Walking through the halls and having everyones eyes widen because of how freakishly skinny I look

 

its not that weird but 


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Posted 21 July 2021 - 09:33 AM

I want to be so skinny and hot that strangers take pics of me in public and use it as thinspo
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Posted 21 July 2021 - 09:59 AM

I have a similar one. Not really an ex-partner (we dated for like a month and then decided remaining friends was better), but someone I was close with and had a falling out with years ago. I want her to say something about my weight so badly and I don't even know why. The way she treated me was awful, but I still want her validation.


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#11 LazyLimbo

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Posted 21 July 2021 - 11:04 AM

I really really want my friends to notice how pretty I am once I get down to my ugw. I've always kind of been the friend that was just kind of ugly. And I really don't want them to see me that way anymore.



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Posted 21 July 2021 - 11:07 AM

i thought i was the only one. i think of that sort of scenario before i fall asleep every night, but usually it’s just people i’ve made up. i’m normally trying to help them with their own illness but they push me away because they think i can’t take it and i’m ‘worse off’

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#13 wishiwasskinny999

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Posted 21 July 2021 - 11:09 AM

Being kidnapped and starved, then escape and be super skinny. Lol my mind is messed up.

this is also a fantasy I have lmao


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#14 meow925

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Posted 21 July 2021 - 05:49 PM

I want to be so skinny and hot that strangers take pics of me in public and use it as thinspo


Oh goddd definitely this! Like I don’t even care if it’s a creep shot, I don’t have that self respect for myself anyways D: bonus points if they’re like “sorry but it’s YOUR fault for walking around in that state”

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#15 meow925

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Posted 21 July 2021 - 05:51 PM

I have a similar one. Not really an ex-partner (we dated for like a month and then decided remaining friends was better), but someone I was close with and had a falling out with years ago. I want her to say something about my weight so badly and I don't even know why. The way she treated me was awful, but I still want her validation.


I have no idea why, I think it might be something with wanting to be so bad even the people who mistreated you get concerned and start feeling guilty…like, “was it my fault?” I feel bad for saying this but the breakup I had with my ex was definitely the stressful situation that triggered the start of my ED. It would be nice to get some acknowledgment of that…
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#16 𝓟𝓵𝓾𝓶

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Posted 21 July 2021 - 06:06 PM

I listen to the song Feed Me by Juliana Hatfield way too much because I like imagining I can sing the lyric "Oh baby what to do? I'm down to 102" to my partner and actually mean it.

I also want to be the thinnest person on the train during my morning commute. Not sure why - I just look around obsessively at all the people comparing myself and calculating how many are thinner, how many are heavier. It's honestly pretty cruel, I wish I didn't do that.

I want to be picked up and thrown into snow easily without much effort from my partner.

I want to finally have a small enough bust size to properly wear dresses ): I look really gross as I am now, I wish I was flat chested.

I want to finally, finally, FINALLY be thinner than my underweight sister so maybe for once my family would be more worried about me than her. I feel really bad about this one because she probably also has an eating disorder but I want to be worse off. We can be the two only thin people in our family together and for once I can not feel as ugly compared to her.


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Posted 21 July 2021 - 06:21 PM

Taking my jacket off at a party with friends and them being shocked at how thin I’ve gotten aka realising that I wasn’t fucking around when I said I struggle with eating
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Posted 21 July 2021 - 06:26 PM

One of mine is seeing a friend I haven't seen since high school(that I happen to like...) And him seeing how skinny I got, and taking me inside and talking to me and trying to help, ending in me dating him...

Another is fainting in front of my group of friends and them finally taking me seriously when I say I don't hardly eat... Not like forcing me but checking in on me to make sure I'm not straight up not eating at all or over working myself to compensate.

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Posted 21 July 2021 - 06:29 PM

going to jail, become a lesbian, fall in love with a hot lesbian, be as skinny as i want, workout in the yard and read books.

(specifically Alex Vause)
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Posted 21 July 2021 - 06:30 PM

Honestly to sleep beside someone and just feel "comforted" for one night or a hug that felt real would be nice
Or holding someone's hand just for a minute or two
I am so alone
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