OMGosh, I've been so busy today, nary a moment to myself. I worked and will work the rest of the weekend before Vegas Tuesday. Hubs gone again this weekend but totally fine by me. Not being mean but with daughter home now I can have solid girl time with her and not feel guilty about ignoring him which I tend to do especially when daughter is home. She's just more my tempo right now. She takes just as much energy as he does tbh but sometimes I like that because we can do the same things and have our girl talk. Still no time like time alone which I won't have for a while.
So Dexatrim!! wow that's a throwback. Damn I miss that too. Pop one of those babies and it's just wine and cigarettes for days and lbs would melt away. Shit. @00na0wl - what video was that about Diana? I was obsessed with her when I lived in England. I would dress like her and want to be her so bad. I lived there when she had William and I wanted to go into London to see her leave the hospital but my then-husband didn't want me to because he said the royals were too much of a target and I could get hurt. So not gonna happen but I was 19 and I figured he knew what he was talking about. Silly me. But if you happen to remember I'd love to see that video. She was so chic. She died a month before my 2nd wedding and I was devastated. I put some of her favorite flowers in my wedding bouquet. Still.
@Julzy, you're so smart. Thank you for everything you say here. You're a true empath.
Didn't weigh today after all. I really want to try weighing every other day. Twice a week would be too much to try. I did that a few weeks ago and it didn't last but a couple days. Therapist says not to try to take things away that bring me comfort even if they're not the best things for me until I feel ready to do that. When I first told him ED was active after many dormant years he said he wouldn't ask me to stop anything for now and that was several months ago. I was surprised but he was right; it gave the comfort I needed at that time and since then I've learned to tick off the really bad things bit by bit. Still learning. This thread has helped so much and I was happy when I finally told him about you all and he approved so I'm going with that. My point being - @PenelopePink, if being here gives you comfort then don't worry about us and our responses. You need and want to be here and you can tell us anything so please know that we are never going to judge or dismiss you. We're all here for support and self care. The self care being most important. Tell us whatever you need to say. Mostly we want us all to be safe and well in whatever capacity that means for us as individual women.
Strength is what I've gained from the madness I've survived.
La conviction, me delivrer du mal.
LW 110 I think (25 years ago)
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130 YESSSS!! One down 16 July
129 128 127 126
GW 2 120
GW 3 110