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#1 transcendentalism

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Posted 21 August 2021 - 11:40 AM

yeah so basically this is my shitty poetry about my ed. i share it on a poetry-sharing network and it's not like i don't get enough attention there, i just feel like most of the people there probably don't really get it. so here i am.


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if that mind is just as frail as its frame, you know i'd leave it alone.


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Posted 21 August 2021 - 11:47 AM

we'll begin with a song i wrote 7-10 years ago. i ended up hating most of my poetry from back then, but this stuck with me, so it's one of the only pieces i've kept all this time. this is:

 

silver linings

 

silver linings keep me kneeling 

at her feet

and i'm still reeling

it's bittersweet

she's got a hold on

every piece of me

 

her innocence has kept her fingers

from my throat

but still she lingers

still she floats

i can feel her

slipping into me

 

one more step and she'll say yes

everything will drop

one more step and i'll undress

everything will stop

 

silver linings feel like fire

i'm choking on her words and

giving in to her desires

when i'm dying i get higher

and i can't get her moving

and i don't know what i'm losing

i suppose one more excuse

can't hurt

 

silver linings keep me stuck in

her intentions

she's a fucking

intervention

i can feel her

slipping into me

 

silver linings like a blade

won't ever fix

the mess she's made

she makes me sick

i've got a hold on

every piece of her

 

one more step and she'll say yes

everything will drop

one more step, i'll acquiesce

everything will stop

everything will stop

 

silver linings feel like fire

i'm choking on her words and

giving in to her desires

when i'm dying i get higher

and i can't get her moving

and i don't know what i'm losing

i suppose one more excuse 

can't hurt

 

the knife goes in

it won't come out

and where i've been

is nothing now

 

her bloody hands are nothing compared to mine

and when this ends, it's surely wasted time

 

silver linings feel like fire

i'm choking on her hands and

giving in to her desires

when i'm starving i get higher

and i can't get her moving

and i can't get her losing

i suppose one more excuse

 

can't hurt


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Posted 21 August 2021 - 11:53 AM

we'll juxtapose it with one i wrote today. peep the references to the abc diet and my time spent here on mpa lmao. this is:

 

i swear i will slip further

 

i miss my cigarettes

i miss the challenges and bets

i hope everyone forgets 

 

that i'm a marionette

stuck in this poisonous outlet

she'll tighten up my silhouette

 

i don't have any regrets

i don't wish that i would be upset

i hope everyone forgets

 

that she's the greatest coquette

they think that she might pose a threat

that i'll get caught up in her net

 

thing is, i owe her some debts

can't let her become just a vignette

i hope everyone forgets

 

when i was breaking a sweat

spent hours on the internet

letting her agonize and fret

 

thing is, i am fully dead-set

on this sickness they will never get

i hope everyone forgets

 

not far behind the onset

my stomach played with the alphabet

then it played with the toilet

 

they say it's a fucked up mindset

to let her coerce me to duet

i hope everyone forgets

 

thing is, i enjoy the roulette

don't want to see any more sunsets

put me in this week's gazette

 

she'll lead and i will abet

she hasn't killed me as of yet

i hope everyone forgets


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if that mind is just as frail as its frame, you know i'd leave it alone.


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Posted 21 August 2021 - 12:33 PM

your poetry is wonderful! I really love the rhythm in each, especially the second <3


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i’ve been here since i was 13 and just keep going back and forth

 

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CW: 162

     GW1: 164 

GW2: 158

GW3: 148

GW4: 140

GW5: 132

GW6: 126

GW7: 122

UGW: 116 lbs

 

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