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#1 Comedy=Tragedy+Time

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Posted 27 August 2021 - 05:57 PM

Hello (*´ω`*)
I've been putting various feelings into odd writings and free verse and wanted to share my works and feelings with others
I'm lacking a lot of a social/personal support in my life currently so this is my only solace for right now

I'm in no way a writer, much less a good one! These were written mostly in a state of intense emotion or thought. More of a coping thing rather than hobby of any sort.

There is no theme or anything. I just kinda write here and there based on whatever feeling or thought I can't get out of my head.

I failed English in highschool yet excelled in Latin and Math so I guess free verse poetry really was the only way for me to go //jokes

Feel free to comment and I hope you enjoy my weird words ^^

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#2 Comedy=Tragedy+Time

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Posted 27 August 2021 - 06:09 PM

In context to my mother's death and the grief I still drag around almost 2 years later

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Title: Costume Jewelry

Oh, my daisy chained necklace
Bought to keep my dead mother
Close to me.

But, oh, mom.
There is no value
In my vintage costume jewelry.

The daisies stuck inside their inlay
Don't die like the real ones
And that golden chain in between
Looks like brass, dulled over time.

Oh mom..
With or without this cheap metal
You've stayed with me regardless.

I never wore it out much,
I was far too scared to most days
You never seemed to mind that though
You've stayed with me
Even then.

Oh mom,
Would you like to split the money
Of when I finally sell this old chain?
It won't be much
But you're a part of it's value anyway.

I can't forget a thing about you
That I've ever learned
And you already know
That we were better than brass anyway.

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Oh no; Mom-
Selling jewelry is just too hard
When a meaning was given to it

But,
As your creation
And as your friend

As just another person
And as your own child

I already know.

I can outshine the dull decor of dusty daisies
That lie too heavy in grief around my neck.

And if I can't find my own light
On those tougher days
I know
You'll shine through em;
Brighter
For me, every time.
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Male / 22

currently dx with atypical anorexia with a long history of purging // did in inpatient for bulimia some years ago

if we're not optimistic, who will be?

 

HW: 282lbs

Most recent "SW": 255lbs

CW: 215lbs
Initial GW: 200/190lbs

tumblr_nwcb6dYKEd1s9362xo1_400.gif

((previously known as Diet Antipsychotics))


#3 Comedy=Tragedy+Time

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Posted 27 August 2021 - 06:13 PM

Had a sort of breakdown in a bookstore last week that really messed with me. I wrote about it last night to hopefully push it from my mind.

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Title: The Self Help Section

Turning my salvation
Into myself,
I knelt before
The self help section.

I felt so righteous
And so religious
Finally I have
Help at the palm of my own hand

Realizing immediately
My place and my soul
Before my own god
I have never felt so small

The god inside me
Hates all of his creations.
Their only sin being
Made in his own image

No permission
Granted by his church
No reason
Could come to my mind

I found no hope
In my own religion
Nor did I find any
Inside my own faith

I walked away from
The self help section
That day

I glanced back
Only once

Crucified against metal shelves
Left behind to bleed,
My final act and bleak attempt
At redemption
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currently dx with atypical anorexia with a long history of purging // did in inpatient for bulimia some years ago

if we're not optimistic, who will be?

 

HW: 282lbs

Most recent "SW": 255lbs

CW: 215lbs
Initial GW: 200/190lbs

tumblr_nwcb6dYKEd1s9362xo1_400.gif

((previously known as Diet Antipsychotics))


#4 kroliks

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Posted 27 August 2021 - 06:20 PM

i really like your poem about your mom. the juxtaposition of cheap jewelry and your love and grief towards her touched me. especially liked when you offered to split the money with her when you consider selling it. i can see how hard it is to let her go


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Posted 01 September 2021 - 07:05 AM

These are really good! You take a theme and really follow it through, there's a consistency and progression in your work I really admire.

You are a writer, and a good one! Highschool means nothing in the real world, you write so you're a writer. Keep at it! Never give up. And let me know when you publish your first book of poetry.

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