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#41 life_of_fabiola

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Posted 22 September 2021 - 09:59 PM

Love the contacts! (You can probably come up with some really cool Halloween costumes to pair them with, if you're into that sort of thing. :) ) And yay about the FitBit as well! Which one did you get?


I got the Inspire 2 ! THIS IS MY NEW BESTIE
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Posted 23 September 2021 - 09:15 AM

Fuck, i ended up eating 300cals more yesterday because my boyfriend opened my fav kind of chips hehehe... that's ok..

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#43 life_of_fabiola

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Posted 24 September 2021 - 06:15 PM

┌─・。゚: ∘◦☾◦∘。゚. ─┐

DAY 18

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BREAKFAST
Vegan breakfast sausage : 180

Grapes : 53

LUNCH

Udon ramen with vegetables : 258


DINNER

Miso : 68

Apple : 76


SNACKS

Grapes : 62

​Pretzel : 150 


TOTAL
847

WEIGHT
104lbs


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Posted 24 September 2021 - 06:23 PM

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I just want to binge. I'm at 828 cals today, that's perfect, but i want to binge and it is only 7pm. My boyfriend is with his 'lover' for the night and he sleeps there and i kinda want to binge because I feel lonely. We are in an open relationship and I really appreciate his lover ! She is so nice and I'm not jealous of her so I'm really happy about it :) But I didn't see him yesterday and tonight he'll sleep there so I feel lonely and I want some comfort food aaaaaaaa ! I think that will be my food log for the day ! I was at 103.9lbs this morning and I think I'll ruin it tonight hahahah *crying*  

 

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Posted 25 September 2021 - 05:26 AM

 

Ugh, I was right there with you last night, re: wanting to binge like crazy. Set my alarm for six a.m. so I could weigh-in and eat breakfast as soon as possible! How did you get on last night?


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Posted 25 September 2021 - 08:54 AM

Ugh, I was right there with you last night, re: wanting to binge like crazy. Set my alarm for six a.m. so I could weigh-in and eat breakfast as soon as possible! How did you get on last night?

I finished my day at 1250cals, not that bad ! I had some chips, popcorn, a bit of chocolate and fortune cookie hahah NOTHING HEALTHY ! But I just weighed myself and I'm at 103.6 so im happy ! :)
IT IS SO DIFFICULT TO RESIST FOOOOD


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Posted 25 September 2021 - 09:01 AM

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PLANNED CHEAT DAY

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OK ! Today it's my best friend's birthday and no waaayyy I make it about me. He knows about my ED and he knows today is stressfull for me because we'll drink a loooot and I HAVE to eat because I'll be sick from alcohol. And I want to enjoy it !! I planned to drink a bottle of wine and a beer at the bar so about 1000cals in alcohol. But I have to eat before and a little during the day too so I'll be close to 2000 today... But i'll walk around a lot. Arrggg all my friends, even my boyfriend will be there, it is like the perfect happy festive day and I wanna cry. I hate my ED so much. But I dont even know who I am anymore without it.

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Posted 26 September 2021 - 02:56 PM

I ended up eating 1250 yesterday and half of it was alcohol so I'm pretty happy about it! I didn't really enjoy the day tho... I felt tired and wasnt in the mood to talk to anybody. I just wanted to cuddle my boyfriend and stay in his arms forever. Anywayy ! Now i dont have any reason to not restrict.


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#49 life_of_fabiola

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Posted 27 September 2021 - 09:50 AM

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DAY 20

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BREAKFAST
Oatmeal with fruits : 254

LUNCH

Udon ramen with vegetables : 222


DINNER

Hosomaki Avocado : 320

Fortune Cookie : 25


SNACKS

Apple : 76


TOTAL
897

WEIGHT
104lbs


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#50 life_of_fabiola

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Posted 28 September 2021 - 05:06 PM

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DAY 21

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BREAKFAST
Oatmeal with fruits : 208

LUNCH

Udon ramen with vegetables : 237


DINNER

Oatmeal with fruits : 291


SNACKS

Chips, gummies and veggies : 311


TOTAL
1047

WEIGHT
104.5lbs

 

I ate more than I wanted, oh well, still under my tdee.


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#51 life_of_fabiola

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Posted 28 September 2021 - 05:16 PM

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MELTDOWN

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I'm binging and purging so much today. Twice in the same day it is A LOOOT for me. The second time I definitely didn't purge everything. My throat is soooo sore, I feel awful. Arrg... I was at 103.4lbs this morning, LOWEST WEIGHT EVER ! But I'll definitely be higher tomorrow... I think I'll be able to eat under 1100 tho. If I don't fuck up again, I'll be at 1058 for the day (approximatively, I cant be sure with all my purging). I HOPE TOMORROW I'LL BE AT 104lbs MAX !! I'll drink 348573 water and I wont eat salty food to help reduce the water weight..


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Posted 28 September 2021 - 05:22 PM

 

Hey, so sorry to hear about the b/p-ing. :( I know it's easier said than done, but do try not to worry about it too much. If you gain, it'll assuredly be water weight, which is an incredibly fickle beast and will easily drop off. <3


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#53 life_of_fabiola

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Posted 28 September 2021 - 05:33 PM

Hey, so sorry to hear about the b/p-ing. :( I know it's easier said than done, but do try not to worry about it too much. If you gain, it'll assuredly be water weight, which is an incredibly fickle beast and will easily drop off. <3

awww you are so freaking nice thank you... I'm at work, sipping on some herbal tea and yess, I think you are right. I should not worry. Arrgg my ED makes me so irrational haha


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Posted 30 September 2021 - 04:02 PM

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DAY 23

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BREAKFAST
Sausage and apple : 237

LUNCH

Udon ramen with vegetables : 237


DINNER

Toast with pate : 100


SNACKS

Red Wine


TOTAL
752

WEIGHT
102.8lbs

 

I'm sooo happy with my day. I saw a friend today and she has an ED. It's my BF's lover (we are in an open relationship) and she is soooooo freaking thin. Like skeleton thin. And knowing my BF is worried about her, about her weight and he wants to help her, triggers me so much ... !! But she has a lot of health problems caused by her ED. She is only 22 and she has osteoporosis. I should not be jelly but my ED brain is crazy hahah


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#55 life_of_fabiola

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Posted 30 September 2021 - 04:09 PM

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DAY 23

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BREAKFAST
nothing.

LUNCH

Vegan egg sandwich : 252


DINNER

SAME RAMEN AS ALWAYS AAAA : 250


SNACKS

Brownie : 340


TOTAL
842

WEIGHT
102.2lbs

 

I had a little fight with my BF today... I'm still triggered about seeing my friend yesterday so I didn't want to eat breakfast. My boyfriend was sad about it and told me he was worried and we started crying. He had to go to work so he left before we had time to sort it out. I'm so scared he will break up with me. I'm fucking 27 and I'm wasting my life because of my ED. I would understand if he wants someone more... someone who has more ambition than me... I cant wait for him to finish his work shift. I need to see him and be in his arms.


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#56 life_of_fabiola

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Posted 02 October 2021 - 05:19 PM

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DAY 24

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I went at a beer festival sooooo I end up eating and drinking 2100 cals ! ... BUT THAT'S OK, OK?? I had fun, but i do regret it tho.


TOTAL
2100

WEIGHT
102.2lbs


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#57 life_of_fabiola

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Posted 02 October 2021 - 05:27 PM

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DAY 25

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BREAKFAST
Banana : 102

LUNCH

Udon ramen, as always : 250

Fortune Cookies : 50


DINNER

Binge/Purge : 416


SNACKS

Pumpkin Spice latte : 167


TOTAL
988

WEIGHT
106lbs

FUCKING 106 ??? IT IS ABOUT 4LBS MORE THAN YESTERDAY!! How?? I know I simply cannot have gained 4lbs with a 2100cals intake day, in addition I burned 766cals walking around all day, but fuck!! Arrg... So today I walked a lot (568cals burned) and I restricted. I hope tomorrow I wont be 106...


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#58 life_of_fabiola

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Posted 04 October 2021 - 05:39 PM

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DAY 26

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BREAKFAST
Nothing.

LUNCH

TOO MUCH ROASTED VEGGIES ! : 625
It was sweet potatoes, beets, butternut squash, carrot, parsnip, potatoes...


DINNER

MORE ROASTED VEGGIES : 206

Saltines : 45

Grapes : 186


SNACKS

Popcorn : 144

Tofu and ketchup : 113


TOTAL
1319

WEIGHT
103.8lbs

I'm not able to restrict aaaaaawwwww. At least I burned more than 1319 so i cannot gain but I dont lose fast enough. I think I wont weigh myself for a few days. The beer festival kiiiilled me.


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Posted 05 October 2021 - 08:11 AM

 

Ayyyy, those roasted veggies sound bomb. :) And just remember: You're still operating at a not insignificant deficit!


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Posted 05 October 2021 - 05:10 PM

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DAY 27

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BREAKFAST
Sausage and grapes : 217

LUNCH

Udon ramen : 220


DINNER

Apple : 76

Saltines : 72

Oatmeal : 110

 

SNACKS

Bananas : 210

Fortune Cookie : 30

Chips : 77


TOTAL
1036

WEIGHT
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Better than the others days ! ... Still not very good. I walked more than 15k steps at least


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