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why dont you want to be fat?


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#81 dreamcloudbunny

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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:33 PM

I’m bigger the my bf, I’m embarrassed by my body and want to look more masculine, I hate having feminine features, I want to look like a boy.

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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:39 PM

I just don’t like the way I look with fat on me.
My parents praise me more the smaller I get.
Clothes look better on me when I’m smaller.


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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:40 PM

i don't think clothes look good on me when I'm heavier. I don't want to have to do the work of finding something that flatters me. Being able to just throw something on and people calling it a fit is such a privilege. 


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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:53 PM

It's unflattering, judgement from others & myself, sensory issues, you take up more space, and it would bring back memories from childhood were I was very overweight & mocked by peers


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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:55 PM

Because I look vile fat. Recovery has screwed me over and made me fat as fk. I long for my pre recovery weight.

Being fat looks disgusting on me.

Hence currently looking disgusting
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#86 life_of_fabiola

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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:55 PM

Because I have way more attention and people are nicer to me since I'm thin. I'm an attention whooore. 


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Posted 15 September 2021 - 02:08 PM

When I'm at a higher weight, my body doesn't feel my own.

My skin gets oily, which I find disgusting.

I get tired faster, and my attention span is even worse becaue I can only focus on how heavy I feel.

My clothes don't fit the way they're supposed to.

I can't sit in the usual positions I do, because I lose the little flexibility I have.

My boobs get bigger, and I already hate them enough when they're the average size.

I feel like a huge blob.

 

Overall, a bad experience.


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Posted 15 September 2021 - 02:42 PM

It's punishment


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#89 passages malibu

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Posted 15 September 2021 - 02:49 PM

my parents are big in the model and entertainment industry and like if they had a fat daughter they would look terrible
imagine signing thin models and then looking at your fat daughter
i would be an embarrassment
i could never live my weight loss down
like it would follow me for life
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#90 passages malibu

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Posted 15 September 2021 - 02:50 PM

and the amount they spent on ballet over the years for me?
like i would be the worst person in the family and i’m quite sure they would hate me if i messed up my body
current bmi - 13.3


☥ she’s had plenty of drug problems and dated some questionable men
she’s been blamed for promoting anorexia and heroin use
and her nicknames include baby and doll face
she’s passages malibu, and she’s a rockstar trapped inside a supermodels body ☥

#91 feonixrizen

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Posted 15 September 2021 - 04:05 PM

I think for me it's that I don't want to become my mother. She has been morbidly obese my entire life and was terribly neglectful and a bit physically abusive. There's also the fact that I have gender disphoria and so fat being in my chest, hips, and butt is just "wrong"

#92 Tunamelt

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Posted 15 September 2021 - 05:31 PM

I hate my mom and she is morbidly obese. Also, everyone tells me how good-looking I am when I lose weight. I was never meant to be fat, just had a neglectful parent who would only feed me fast food and store-bought cupcakes until I was obese at age 8 lol. Being fat makes me think of all the ways she let me down and didn’t care for me. Being thin means I’m “taking care of myself” even though it’s realistically probably just as dangerous as the overeating I did as a child, if not more.
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Posted 16 September 2021 - 06:33 AM

I have been fat and it drastically reduced my quality of life. I wasn’t able to do as much and I hated myself to the point where I developed severe agoraphobia and rarely left my house. I hate the way I look when I’m fat

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Posted 16 September 2021 - 06:51 AM

i don’t find fat attractive
i’m hungry

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Posted 16 September 2021 - 06:58 AM

I feel very physically uncomfortable wit extra weight on me.

I have very fragile joints due to a medical condition so the less weight on them the better.

Having more fat makes me look more feminine which I hate (even tho my fashion style is very girly I feel most myself when my body looks as androgynous as possible)

I feel better taking up as little space as possible


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Posted 16 September 2021 - 07:40 AM

I don't have the personality for it like I'm smol inside 


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Posted 16 September 2021 - 08:59 AM

For me it's not about fat, it's about taking up space. I am trying to take up less space and exist less. I want to collapse into nothingness like a black hole.


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Posted 16 September 2021 - 09:20 AM

I hate the way I look with curves. I want to be angular, androgynous. I enjoy looking masculine but wearing feminine clothing. I don’t feel like I identify with my gender unless I’m thin.

I was chubby as a preteen, bullied and ostracized and pressured by my parents to diet. Once I grew in to my wide hips I was over sexualized in a gross way by older men. I don’t ever want to go back there. It was hell.
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Posted 16 September 2021 - 09:56 AM

Because i hate being sexualized and being very thin grants me some freedom from that. Also people tend to take me more seriously and treat me kinder or at least with more consideration
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#100 JustABitThinner

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Posted 16 September 2021 - 10:08 AM

First of all, I love this thread, so triggering. I want to add on:

- society is not as kind to fat people as they are to thin, attractive people. Sad but true.
- society values thinness because it is associated with discipline, health, success. Because of this, I feel more confidence in a thinner body and think that people see me better.
- I'm terrified of my SO ever falling out of love with me, or cheating, etc, and I think that it's less likely to happen if I'm happy with myself which occurs when I'm comfortable in my body aka on the thinner side of healthy. I know at the end of the day this stuff comes down the cheater's choices and their values, but I've seen way too many stories of women being cheated on when they gained a lot of weight so that's extremely frightening for me.
- clothing shopping is so much easier when you're thin. XS or S only. No questions of "oh maybe I'll have to get a medium for my bloating" or whatever. Also all clothing looks SO good on thin bodies.
- I was starting to get uncomfortable in my body when it was only at like BMI 21-22. It is something I've never been used to because I've grown up naturally thin and I'm terrified to lose that trait.
- when you're thin you also have a bit more "leeway" in what you eat, if that makes sense?? For example if you treat yourself to 2 burgers and you're thin, people are kind of amazed and make jokes about "where do you put all that" etc. When I heavy person eats like that, it is seen as un-disciplined and frankly gross to some people :/
- similar to the last point, I feel like (some people) can enjoy food a bit more when you're thin because you know that one bad meal isn't going to lose your progress. It can just be a metabolism day or whatever. but when you're fat and trying to lose you are always going to overthink your meals.
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