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#1 Skinnyminnie1984isback

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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:11 PM

So I’m low restricting. BUT I’m at a very high weight right now. Thankyou recovery. Not.

I eat approx 230 cals per day - today was 214.

I feel fine aside from slight blurry eyes a little bit wobbly and I nearly fell over a few times but hungry? No. Not at all. If anything I feel a little sick.

But am I actually doing damage to myself? I’m telling myself it’s ok cos I’m so heavy right now. So much bigger than I was - I wish I hadn’t ever let myself gain weight.

I haven’t any health problems so surely I’m ok to carry on? I wanna keep going till I lose another 20lbs then I might up to 500
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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:15 PM

I would say yes to damage... as blurry eyes, bit wobbly and feeling a little sick. I'd highly suggest increasing the calories, as higher weights can consume more and still lose, best to lose a little safer than throwing yourself in to the deep end immediately.

 

The blurry eyes, wobbly and feeling a little sick kind of imply health problems are currently developing. Stay safe.


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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:16 PM

You can be at risk of malnourishment at literally any size if your body isn't getting the right amount of vitamins/minerals.


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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:18 PM

you can be any weight and get damage from your ed 


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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:20 PM

I would say yes to damage... as blurry eyes, bit wobbly and feeling a little sick. I'd highly suggest increasing the calories, as higher weights can consume more and still lose, best to lose a little safer than throwing yourself in to the deep end immediately.

The blurry eyes, wobbly and feeling a little sick kind of imply health problems are currently developing. Stay safe.

. I would increase my cals but I feel like I can’t? Not till I get another 20 off. I’m already down 11. Just need another 20

Thankyou for replying tho. Hoping if I add in some fluids they might get better?
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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:21 PM

You can be at risk of malnourishment at literally any size if your body isn't getting the right amount of vitamins/minerals.


I just feel too big for any problems you know? I might add in a vitamin or something
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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:21 PM

There is no way you can get the amount of nutrients—vitamins & minerals—needed for basic health if only eating 200kcal per day.

It might not happen immediately but you will develop signs/symptoms of vitamin/mineral deficiencies. These symptoms include physical (muscle cramping, weakness, dry/brittle hair/nails/skin, poor wound healing, cardiac issues, immunodeficiency…) & mental (poor attention/concentration, fogginess, depression, anxiety, dullness…).

And no, supplements will not substitute. Plus you need enough fat to absorb some vitamins.

Just one of many ways you are doing damage restricting so low…

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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:23 PM

you can be any weight and get damage from your ed


I was so much better when I was small.
Aren’t I too big for problems now? I feel like I am. Like I’m just burning fat and that’s what these symptoms are?
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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:24 PM

There is no way you can get the amount of nutrients—vitamins & minerals—needed for basic health if only eating 200kcal per day.

It might not happen immediately but you will develop signs/symptoms of vitamin/mineral deficiencies. These symptoms include physical (muscle cramping, weakness, dry/brittle hair/nails/skin, poor wound healing, cardiac issues, immunodeficiency…) & mental (poor attention/concentration, fogginess, depression, anxiety, dullness…).

And no, supplements will not substitute. Plus you need enough fat to absorb some vitamins.

Just one of many ways you are doing damage restricting so low…


I feel stuck. I don’t think I can increase. I’m so ashamed of this recovery weight. Worst thing I ever did.

I’m finding it hard even having what I am
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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:25 PM

yes, just high restrict please


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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:25 PM

yes, just high restrict please


I am so scared to increase
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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:29 PM

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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:30 PM

I am so scared to increase

 

you're quite tall, and since you're starting at a higher weight, you're burning more calories, you can go on a walk every day and eat minimum 1000 calories and I promise you will lose the same amount if you were to eat what you are eating now


 lw: 108 lbs 

 

body goals:

 

-slimmer face

-thigh gap 

-ribs when stretching 

-visible ab definition

-tricep fat gone

-upper back fat gone

-waist under 24 inches

-butt doesn't stick out in school skirts anymore

-tighter body

-can fit into old clothes again

 

20/09/21 - 20/12/21 :

3 months modified P90 program

high protein diet

8,600 calories a week

alcohol only allowed on 27th october - 31st

 

 

164 163 162 161 160 159 158 157 156 155 154 153 152 151 150 149 148 147 146 145 144  143 142 141 140 139 138 137 136 135 134 133 132 131 130 129 128 127 126 125 124 123 122 121 120 119 118 117 116 115 114 113 112 111 110 109 108 107 106 105 104 103 102 101 100 99 

 

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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:30 PM

Most of the damage associated with EDs are a result of the behaviors (like extreme calorie and nutritional restriction, or purging) NOT from being underweight - low body weight is just one of the possible side effect of those behaviors. You can suffer the effects of malnourishment at any weight because it’s a consequence of not getting adequate nutrition.
For example, In 2015 my hair started falling out about ~3 months into a relapse. I was at a BMI of <14. This year I relapsed again but started from a much higher weight (BMI in the high 24’s) and again, my hair started falling out ~3 months in EVEN THOUGH not only was I at a healthy weight, but I was actually still heavier than I was pre-ED and most of recovery. This is because it usually takes about 3 months for nutritional deficiencies to manifest physically. It is NOT about the weight.
So tldr; yes, 230 calories is very low and you are absolutely doing damage to your body regardless of your weight.
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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:32 PM

you're quite tall, and since you're starting at a higher weight, you're burning more calories, you can go on a walk every day and eat minimum 1000 calories and I promise you will lose the same amount if you were to eat what you are eating now


Really? I dunno. I feel like I flipped a switch and now I’m scared of anything that isn’t my potato and salmon. Doesn’t help my body is so flabby and disgusting it puts me off eating
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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:33 PM

Most of the damage associated with EDs are a result of the behaviors (like extreme calorie and nutritional restriction, or purging) NOT from being underweight - low body weight is just one of the possible side effect of those behaviors. You can suffer the effects of malnourishment at any weight because it’s a consequence of not getting adequate nutrition.
For example, In 2015 my hair started falling out about ~3 months into a relapse. I was at a BMI of <14. This year I relapsed again but started from a much higher weight (BMI in the high 24’s) and again, my hair started falling out ~3 months in EVEN THOUGH not only was I at a healthy weight, but I was actually still heavier than I was pre-ED and most of recovery. This is because it usually takes about 3 months for nutritional deficiencies to manifest physically. It is NOT about the weight.
So tldr; yes, 230 calories is very low and you are absolutely doing damage to your body regardless of your weight.


This makes sense. I’m just scared to increase
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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:33 PM

So I’m low restricting. BUT I’m at a very high weight right now. Thankyou recovery. Not.

I eat approx 230 cals per day - today was 214.

I feel fine aside from slight blurry eyes a little bit wobbly and I nearly fell over a few times but hungry? No. Not at all. If anything I feel a little sick.

But am I actually doing damage to myself? I’m telling myself it’s ok cos I’m so heavy right now. So much bigger than I was - I wish I hadn’t ever let myself gain weight.

I haven’t any health problems so surely I’m ok to carry on? I wanna keep going till I lose another 20lbs then I might up to 500


Yes you are definetly doing damage. Eating dosorders cause damage wether you can tell or not. Our body is like a car, cars need gas and oil at the very least or they wont run right. We need food in order to live and no one can survive off of what yoir trying to for very long. We all cause damage to our bodys theough eating disorders. I thought i was fine too, 28 is when all mine came. Im 34 now and eventhough i have a eating disorder have recently relapsed im still causing more damage, i just dont care right now. With each relapse comes with more damage. You just cant tell because you cant see on the inside what its doing to your organs. Being wobbly and having blurry eyes aka dizziness is never good wether your dieting like a normal healthy person or restricting. So basically you need to eat more unless you want to end up in the hospital after you eventually pass out. Because on that amount you will pass out.
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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:36 PM

Yes you are definetly doing damage. Eating dosorders cause damage wether you can tell or not. Our body is like a car, cars need gas and oil at the very least or they wont run right. We need food in order to live and no one can survive off of what yoir trying to for very long. We all cause damage to our bodys theough eating disorders. I thought i was fine too, 28 is when all mine came. Im 34 now and eventhough i have a eating disorder have recently relapsed im still causing more damage, i just dont care right now. With each relapse comes with more damage. You just cant tell because you cant see on the inside what its doing to your organs. Being wobbly and having blurry eyes aka dizziness is never good wether your dieting like a normal healthy person or restricting. So basically you need to eat more unless you want to end up in the hospital after you eventually pass out. Because on that amount you will pass out.


Yea I really don’t wanna end up hospital. I was sectioned in the past for it and I don’t wanna go back there. I just can’t see how I can increase my intake without it seriously affecting my mental health. So it’s a choice - physical or mental
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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:42 PM

I feel stuck. I don’t think I can increase. I’m so ashamed of this recovery weight. Worst thing I ever did.

I’m finding it hard even having what I am


I totally understand, once you restrict esp so low adding more is terrifying.
But maybe think of it as a trial…commit to eating 1000kcal for 2 or 3 weeks. Try not to weigh during this time. Then, if you have gained or didn’t lose some, you can always go back to what you’re doing now. Right?
It’s terrifying. But restricting so low is not sustainable. Likely you will binge or just crash.

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Posted 15 September 2021 - 01:45 PM

I totally understand, once you restrict esp so low adding more is terrifying.
But maybe think of it as a trial…commit to eating 1000kcal for 2 or 3 weeks. Try not to weigh during this time. Then, if you have gained or didn’t lose some, you can always go back to what you’re doing now. Right?
It’s terrifying. But restricting so low is not sustainable. Likely you will binge or just crash.


I know you’re right. But the idea makes me want to cry. Which I find pathetic given my current size.

I would love to try it. I really would I just don’t know if mentally I can. I feel like I can see the food i eat just attaching itself to me and making me fatter
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