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#1 skinnysakura

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Posted 29 September 2021 - 03:20 AM

My binges are super expensive so...

If I hadn't binged so much I'd be able to buy a $1000 fancy anime cosplay. 

I'm really feeling like a waste of space rn.


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Don't you know better, 

To be feeding the wolves? 
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#2 fat fuck everyday

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Posted 29 September 2021 - 03:25 AM

If I hadn't binged so much, I'd be able to buy a nice restaurant meal, instead of literally settling for the cheapest fucking option of everything, and even going to any fast food place that isn't McDonalds has me resorting to desperate matters to afford binge food. Its so fucking ridiculous, I know how you feel.


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all I have in life is this shitty food

 


#3 dicehatestealth

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Posted 29 September 2021 - 04:07 AM

my dads bday gift lol rip



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Posted 29 September 2021 - 04:46 AM

...all the low calorie safe foods that are "too expensive" (yet binging somehow isn't??)


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Posted 29 September 2021 - 02:49 PM

a big house and a private jet probably, I've spunked so much dosh on food in my lifetime


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#6 pickles312

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Posted 29 September 2021 - 06:52 PM

Pay rent, mortgage and taxes. Iow, afford my shelter. Sort of important. Frickin’ lame.
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Posted 29 September 2021 - 08:40 PM

Just curious, What cosplay did you want?

 

For me, I know that I would probably be wasting the money whether I binge or not. I often don’t spend much of anything on my binges anyway, I know that if not spent on binge food, the money would be spent on restriction food or fancy scales or something.


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I don’t know what my goals are. I just know that I need to quit bingeing and purging, and extreme restriction. I need to find something else to make my life fulfilling.

 

I finally know what my goal is. It is to get my life back after these terrible five years, no matter how much I will struggle to achieve that. It’s time to fight my way back into life.

 

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#8 TraumatisedUnicorn

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Posted 29 September 2021 - 08:48 PM

If I hadn't binged so much, I'd have enough money saved up for my funeral so I wouldn't have to worry about being shoved in an unmarked grave with a bunch of other random dead people if my heart stops whilst I'm asleep ; u ;

I get so much anxiety about dying before I have enough money saved up for the funeral and burial I want, I feel like being able to say goodbye properly and have a place to go to remember me will help my boyfriend cope with the grieving process at least a tiny bit better. I feel awful about the pain I'm going to put him through when it happens so I want to try and do anything I can to help make it a bit easier on him (and unfortunately recovery just ISN'T an option for me. I've tried so many times and I just can't.)
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#9 Bigdaddy’spizza

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Posted 29 September 2021 - 09:54 PM

Pay my rent, Pay bills, buy clothes, ect.


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#10 Bigdaddy’spizza

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Posted 29 September 2021 - 09:55 PM

Pay rent, mortgage and taxes. Iow, afford my shelter. Sort of important. Frickin’ lame.

FELT.


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Formally known as Iliveadoublelifesorry

But I don't live a double life anymore. This is my life. This is me.

My safe place https://www.myproana...-its-fall-btch/

Cw 128.6
Hw (that I know of) 155
Lw (that I low of ) 126.3
Gw 115 by HALLOWEEN
Ugw 110 for now
❤️🎈
weight loss rewards:
   A NEW LIFE

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#11 ForeverDieting

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Posted 30 September 2021 - 05:45 AM

I'd be able to afford rent :')

 

The downpayment for a car. Probably the whole payment for the car if it's a second hand one, I don't think I'd ever be able to buy a brand new one anyway


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#12 istherehappiness

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Posted 03 October 2021 - 03:45 AM

Oh here we go:

A car

A new wardrobe

Really nice school supplies (i.e. expensive pens.)  I have a weird obsession with nice writing materials.

A new nice journal

Savings

Savings for trips

Get a manicure and a pedicure, can't right now because I'm spending too much.

Therapy and meds

 

 

 



#13 Iceprinzezz

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Posted 03 October 2021 - 11:42 AM

if I hadn't binged so much I'd be debt free

I hate myself so much


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#14 SadieV

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Posted 04 October 2021 - 10:03 AM

I'd be able to buy a couple of cute new outfits.


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Posted 04 October 2021 - 10:27 AM

i'd probably have enough money to pay off most of my medical bills.



#16 skinnysakura

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Posted 05 October 2021 - 07:17 PM

Just curious, What cosplay did you want?

 

For me, I know that I would probably be wasting the money whether I binge or not. I often don’t spend much of anything on my binges anyway, I know that if not spent on binge food, the money would be spent on restriction food or fancy scales or something.

Maybe not $1000 but a $300 Bakugo cosplay. I am a girl but I have an "explosive" personality just like him lol. 

Restriction food like Halo Top and Shirataki noodles is pretty expensive too. 

Maybe I'd spend the rest on a vacation? 


Don't you know better, 

To be feeding the wolves? 
A primal sensation, 
Defensively done.

 

Every time I walk in the club They hating on me cuz they know I look good My hair done right and my dress real tight All eyes on me I took the night.

 

HW: 55.7 kg BMI 22.3   LW: 33.4 kg. BMI 13.4

 CW: 50.4 kg. BMI 20.2

GW1: 47.6 kg. BMI 19.1

GW2: 45 kg. BMI 18

GW3: 39.9 kg BMI 16

GW4: 36.1 kg BMI 14.5

UGW: 33.4 kg or lower (BMI 13.4)

158cm tall

AN/BP

 

https://tenor.com/bjEIq.gif

 

Accountability: https://www.myproana...-bmi-21-bmi-13/

 

"Just to release the tension, but I ended up binging and purging for bulimic purposes."


#17 Thinchance

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Posted 05 October 2021 - 09:01 PM

Pay off my PPT on my car. Fak.

#18 SlickTommyPilates

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Posted 06 October 2021 - 01:01 AM

Probably have paid off half my debt

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 08:41 PM

Clothes, textbooks for college, or tuition..😔

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Posted 15 October 2021 - 12:59 AM

I’d have way more savings… 


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