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I feel like food is the only colour in my life


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#1 Cloud.sse

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Posted 06 October 2021 - 01:30 PM

I hate the concept of food, I hate binging I hate even just watching others eat.
But when I'm not eating everything just is grey and flat. It doesnt matter if I'm out with friends or sat alone or what weight I'm at or how sick I already feel I always want to binge because it's the only thing that makes me feel something and feel alive.
Has anyone else experienced this?? How do you get over it?? I'm desperate to stop this cycle and lose weight it is getting really dangerous for me mentally like I need to stop.but I cant because otherwise everything just feels even more dead than it does already
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Posted 06 October 2021 - 01:33 PM

Read this, it explains it in a clear manner, and you can research into this a bit more with google articles and medical journals / neuroscience magazines etc:

https://www.scienced...70828102719.htm

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Posted 06 October 2021 - 01:52 PM

I'm so sorry, I hope you feel better soon and things get better for you 



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Posted 06 October 2021 - 07:57 PM

Im so sorry you're going through this. I went through a similar phase this summer, and honestly the only thing that got me out of it was getting more depressed and anxious, and it affecting my appetite. There's light at the end of the tunnel. Take it one day at a time. I found when I was in this phase focusing on weight-loss just made everything worse, so I say try to fix the binges and if you're just maintaining that's a win, too. I know this probably isn't the answer you wanted, but it's all I know. Things will get better!
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Posted 06 October 2021 - 08:48 PM

Same :(

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Posted 06 October 2021 - 09:19 PM

"The present results suggest that overeating may continuously overstimulate the opioid system," is it like cocaine where one is chemically unable to feel pleasure after the high I wonder?


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Posted 06 October 2021 - 10:26 PM

FELT. Food is my only friend..


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Posted 06 October 2021 - 10:31 PM

i feel exactly the same. i want to be skinny more than anything but im so miserable 24/7 and food is the only thing that takes the pain away temporarily


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Posted 08 October 2021 - 06:05 AM

I know exactly what you mean. I always find myself wondering how people can just relax and do something without thinking about food or wanting to eat nonstop because that's all I want to do all the time.

 

I'm still working on this myself so unfortunately I can't tell you how to fix this but I'm attempting to focus on all the things I'd gain if I stopped binging and that's the only thing that has stopped me sometimes. 


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Posted 08 October 2021 - 09:16 AM

Perhaps it would help to find a new hobby you enjoy. Or get a pet. I recently took up roller skating. It's not cure, but it helps sometimes, and that's better than nothing.


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Posted 13 October 2021 - 12:49 PM

something that helps me sometimes is picturing the food in black and white, i think i saw a thread about that on here a while back.  like, i'm always seeing these stupid posts about food on my fb, delicious and tempting looking stuff that could def trigger a binge for me if i let them but like... idk after seeing that post on here about picturing the food in black and white, i think back to that and that's what i do now when those other kinds of posts on sites like fb etc. get to me.  with color pictures those tempting- looking foods might seem so amazing and even get me salivating when im already quite hungry, but then i stop and think well a lot of that sensory activating type stuff in those images is really just the colors mostly (at least that's how it is for me anyway.)  and when i re- imagine the foods in black and white they lose pretty much all of their appeal and they all just look and seem like one big grey pile of blah.  and then it's all just like black and white and grey and boring, and reminds me that at the end of the day pretty much everything in life is all just pending to become dust and ashes anyway lol hip hip hoo-ray yay...

 

 

idk i guess maybe that's just for like pics of food and stuff and it can be so much harder when you're around real actual food that you can smell and touch and stuff in person haha but still the mental imagery of it being in black and white can also be applied to those more tangible type food stuffs in person too if you will your brain to do it hard enough lol


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Posted 14 October 2021 - 06:32 AM

Read this, it explains it in a clear manner, and you can research into this a bit more with google articles and medical journals / neuroscience magazines etc:

https://www.scienced...70828102719.htm

 

But does that explain why he feels that "everything just is grey and flat" when he's not eating?

 

I'd like to know why that happens because I feel the same on a daily basis.


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Posted 14 October 2021 - 06:36 AM

"The present results suggest that overeating may continuously overstimulate the opioid system," is it like cocaine where one is chemically unable to feel pleasure after the high I wonder?

 

Interesting. Maybe the only way out is to re-set the system, to completely detox [from binging] for a prolonged length of time, akin to an alcoholic in rehab. But how long it takes to reset the system is anyone's guess! I'm still feeling like the OP and I'm 157 days binge free :/


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Posted 20 October 2021 - 11:49 PM

You’re not alone

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Posted 20 October 2021 - 11:50 PM

I know exactly what you mean. I always find myself wondering how people can just relax and do something without thinking about food or wanting to eat nonstop because that's all I want to do all the time.

I'm still working on this myself so unfortunately I can't tell you how to fix this but I'm attempting to focus on all the things I'd gain if I stopped binging and that's the only thing that has stopped me sometimes.



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Posted 23 October 2021 - 10:37 PM

I apologize since this isn’t really helpful to you, more like an observation reading your post. But like, eating disorders and drug addictions really are are one and the same. Everything you just said I relate to completely, but just replace the word “food” with opiates. I feel your pain. You’re not alone.
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