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#1 MaggieG

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Posted 06 October 2021 - 02:17 PM

What was your most recent trigger for a relapse?

 

Mine is usually on a personal level, because those hurt deep. But this time I'm triggered by a celebrity.

Seeing photos of their body at their skinny / normal weight and then at plus 45-50 lbs, a world of difference.

 

 


Status - lost in the last 4 weeks (pounds and inches):

12 lb

1.5 in hip, bust, thigh, 2.5 in waist, 3.5 in belly


#2 Princess_999_emergency

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Posted 06 October 2021 - 02:23 PM

I think it was seeing a picture of myself doing a treetop obstacle course? But there is lots of other stuff going on like breaking up with my ex, single parenting, new job, difficult relationships with my parents … so I guess it’s hard to pinpoint just the one thing.
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177cm
HW: 77 kilos

LW: 47.5 kilos

UGW: 44 kilos

CW: 53 kilos … BMI: 16.9


GW1: 63

GW2: 58

GW3: 55

GW4: 52

GW5: 49

GW6: 47

UGW: 44


#3 Maladaptive

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Posted 06 October 2021 - 02:27 PM

Fucking Kpop lmao

Similar to you, an idol I like lost weight and I just got super triggered. I was never really fully recovered anyway though. And I think there was a bit of other stressors that contributed, but this was kind of the straw that broke the camel's back.
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Posted 06 October 2021 - 02:31 PM

heartbreak 


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#5 MaggieG

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Posted 06 October 2021 - 02:33 PM

I think it was seeing a picture of myself doing a treetop obstacle course? But there is lots of other stuff going on like breaking up with my ex, single parenting, new job, difficult relationships with my parents … so I guess it’s hard to pinpoint just the one thing.

 

I feel sorry about this. Send you hugs.

You are brave and strong to manage all that on your own, parenting and new job. Congratulations.

 

With me it's the same usually over the years, a combination about school, work, love life, parents.

But this time it's a superficial reason, not personal one, so am wondering how long it lasts.


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Status - lost in the last 4 weeks (pounds and inches):

12 lb

1.5 in hip, bust, thigh, 2.5 in waist, 3.5 in belly


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Posted 06 October 2021 - 02:57 PM

I'm going for my 16th check up soon and I wanna weigh less because I'm scared I'm overweight and I don't wanna be
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Posted 06 October 2021 - 06:22 PM

grief, and subsequently a deathwish


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#8 amaris-fae-semi-gay

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Posted 06 October 2021 - 06:29 PM

Boyfriend prefers porn to sex. Makes me feel like shit about myself.
Also had to cut my mother out of my life, which has been traumatic and stressful and difficult.
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#9 Dying2b3Th!n

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Posted 06 October 2021 - 06:37 PM

Losing someone in a traumatic way.
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Hw-165lbs lw-80lbs cw-144.2 lbs gw-105lbs when I was 17 years old hw- was 210 but I was just giving info on hw for this time around.
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Posted 06 October 2021 - 07:00 PM

Stress lmao

My partner is on the edge of being homeless and theres nothing i can do to help right now. One of my best friends tried to unalive themself. Those are my 2 biggest stresses right now
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Misunderstood

but also

a really bad person who has no likable personalty traits and is also physically unappealing

I'm trying, okay? 


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Posted 06 October 2021 - 07:06 PM

oddly, getting weighed for the first time in years (I avoid it for sanity) and it being lower than expected.

also grad schooooool and the sensation of not really wanting to die but also not really wanting to be alive, at least not in current runtime parameters


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human from the humus.
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Posted 06 October 2021 - 07:07 PM

my mom just died, her liver failed because she was an alcoholic for half of my life. guess we all have our own addictions. 


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5'4"

hw: 128

lw: 85 

cw: 105.4

gw 1: 102

gw 2: 99

ugw: a joke. also 95​. or 90.

 

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Posted 06 October 2021 - 07:34 PM

went on a family vacay, at more than usual (nothing crazy, but more than i would at home), came back and gained like 1 or 1.5 kg if i remember correctly. i guess thats nothing crazy, but i liked the weight i was at before and i was weirdly attached to it, so i ended up relapsing and losing 4 or 5 kg


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Posted 07 October 2021 - 01:23 AM

Unrequited love, stress about school and my future, and the binge cycle I was in.
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Posted 07 October 2021 - 01:40 AM

Gained 25+ lbs within 2 months of being jobless. Unrequited love and being so lonely. Getting rejected for job offers. Too embarrassed to leave the house. My clothes don't fit anymore. I hate myself so much.


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Posted 07 October 2021 - 01:42 AM

Having my 16th miscarriage. I don’t want to reward this failure of a body with food anymore.
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H:170cm // HW: 63kg // LW: 48kg // SW: 63kg // CW: 60kg // GW1: 52kg // UGW: --

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Posted 07 October 2021 - 01:45 AM

I saw my weight at the doctor's the same day I woke up thinking I looked chunky. When I got home I measured my waist and had a huge freak-out.

 


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Wanted, Wanted:

 

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Stats:

height- 5'6" | hw- 127.3 lbs (inpatient) | lw- 74.9 lbs

 

I relapsed.

SW: 120ish lbs; CW: 110 lbs

GW: 105 lbs

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Posted 07 October 2021 - 01:50 AM

had my 9 y/o niece look at me and say i eat too much. it destroyed me.
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GW: 110

GW: 100

GW: 95

 

BMI~ 22.1


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Posted 07 October 2021 - 02:26 AM

Being sick and having no appetite anyways, recent photos of myself, the prospect of vacations soon and going back to places with beaches, plus feeling stressed about my job and future.
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Posted 07 October 2021 - 02:57 AM

a bit of my tooth cracked off and I feel so ugly and ashamed because I'm too young for that and my teeth were already so bad and my biggest insecurity, plus my boyfriend's birthday is coming up and a bunch of our friends are gonna see it for the first time and I just don't want to go
plus other things but that was really the catalyst for relapse
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