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#41 estefania_

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Posted 09 October 2021 - 02:51 PM

a lot of loss and the feelings along with that—guilt, shame, anxiety all has me feeling out of control.
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Posted 09 October 2021 - 02:58 PM

well, my dad kicked me out, and then my chest looked big in my binder. its supposed to be flat.


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Posted 09 October 2021 - 03:38 PM

-Gaining above my 'safe weight' and seeing pictures of myself
-Seeing my obese mother and her eating habits and not wanting to ever be like that
-Crushing on and sleeping with a guy way thinner that me and feeling massive in comparison
-Noticing the difference in how I'm treated by friends and strangers alike when I went from BMI 18.5 or.6 to the 20.somethings. The truth is ugly but it's the truth: the world is at my feet when I'm thin. When I'm average, the world treats me as average.
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Posted 09 October 2021 - 04:18 PM

I saw a picture. My boyfriend was carrying his sister and I was in the background at my highest weight. I remember asking him why he didn’t carry me and he said because I’m not as small. Thinking about that moment and seeing that gets me every time. I’ve lost thirty pounds since then, 20 more to go until my goal weight
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Posted 09 October 2021 - 04:56 PM

my mom just died, her liver failed because she was an alcoholic for half of my life. guess we all have our own addictions. 

my mum's death affected me so badly. im here if u need someone. xxxx


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 an immortal anorexic with a god complex 

 

175cm (5'9"),

all leg 

 

hw = 56kg (BMI 18.9, I was shorter)

lw = 31kg (BMI 10.1)

cw= 32.3kg (BMI 10.6)

 

​currently in hospital, spending my life online for the hours when they turn the wifi on.  

 

  


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Posted 09 October 2021 - 09:08 PM

I think I might have developed gastroparesis, and the complete lack of appetite is obviously making me restrict.


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female    ★     5'4"    ★     hw 155 (bmi 26.6)    ★    lw 84 (bmi 14.4)    ★    gw 70 (bmi 12.0)

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ENTP-T    ★    enneagram 7w8 or 8w7    ★    diagnosed AN-bp in 2017    ★    I've had an ED since 2015

 

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#47 Dornröschen

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Posted 11 October 2021 - 02:32 PM

Gastroparesis (not caused by ED) has flared up pretty bad, so food = physical pain & nausea... good reason to restrict ig. Also unresolved trauma, I'm using my ED as a coping mechanism probably. College stress as well. Just a clusterf*ck of triggers 


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 HW: 129  CW: 111.6  GW: 100  UGW: 95 

 

chronic illnesses suck


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Posted 11 October 2021 - 02:35 PM

I got m*lested again
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#49 strawberrymochii

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Posted 11 October 2021 - 04:25 PM

My partner keeps comparing me to his ex that also has an ED. They told me their weight/safe food/ and their habits. Big trigger.
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Posted 11 October 2021 - 04:33 PM

short answer- weight gain
long answer- a depressive spiral
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Posted 11 October 2021 - 04:41 PM

My partner keeps comparing me to his ex that also has an ED. They told me their weight/safe food/ and their habits. Big trigger.

 I,m so sorry for you it must be terrible 


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#52 Acryl

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Posted 11 October 2021 - 06:18 PM

I was triggerd of photos of myself when I was very underweight
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Posted 11 October 2021 - 06:19 PM

I was triggerd of photos of myself when I was very underweight
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Posted 11 October 2021 - 06:19 PM

I was triggerd of photos of myself when I was very underweight
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Posted 11 October 2021 - 07:43 PM

This will sound really stupid but it was a dream. I had a dream that I'd forced myself to throw up until I puked blood and became delirious, and my thought process was instantly "wow, I should do that in real life!" lol.
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Posted 11 October 2021 - 07:44 PM

Stress with work and money, PTSD
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Posted 12 October 2021 - 01:35 PM

Getting dumped by my boyfriend because of my ED which I was trying to recover from at that time. Relapsed immediately and it got me down to my lowest weight ever bmi 12.5 just recently. Now at the hospital gaining weight because of it:')

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Posted 12 October 2021 - 02:11 PM

My boyfriend's sister lost weight, she's still bigger than me by a lot but in my mind I must be even smaller than her
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Posted 12 October 2021 - 04:00 PM

The fact that I can’t fit into my clothes and then decided to weigh myself and seeing that I have gained 40lbs in a year :(
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#60 LittleRoseKitten

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Posted 12 October 2021 - 04:03 PM

I got m*lested again


I’m so sorry that happened to you.
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