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#81 erroneous

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 02:57 PM

Not a relapse per say.. but intensification- a cold
It's fucking floored me but do I know how to look after myself...
Not at all
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#82 tcbiwws

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 02:58 PM

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#83 anarchy-boy

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 03:15 PM

i've said this before but eh

 

anyway, it was figuring out i'm a boy and staring in the mirror realising i don't look right. that i was so far off.

horrible feeling.

 

edit: well, i mean, my original round-a-bout with ed shit was also because of gender dysphoria, i just didn't realise it quite yet.


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「ugw」 70 lbs ✧ 32 kg ✧ 5 st ✧ 13 bmi

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#84 nessavee15

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 03:25 PM

Had a bf for a week who exclusively would eat fast food when I was around, so we would eat good and then drink at night. Gained some weight (maybe 10lbs from both him and the month prior), then went home and my mom said that I look “so much better now” ‘cause I wasn’t as gaunt. Had to fix that shit REAL quick.
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Posted 13 October 2021 - 03:34 PM

Today I'm feeling really triggered because I feel like I always say the wrong thing in conversations and fights and somehow it seems like people are more forgiving when you're skinny. Also this time of year is just always kinda triggering for me.

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 03:58 PM

Rejection

 

Though I was already on the way back, I just deliberately focused on those feelings


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Posted 13 October 2021 - 04:45 PM

Therapy haha. Ironically she was the best therapist I ever had but we spoke about (TW)


sexual assault that had gone on in my childhood and it just brought it all up to the surface so my brain went right back to the coping mechanism I used before.
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Posted 13 October 2021 - 05:22 PM

going back to college. i had gained a lot of weight while schools were closed and no one had to see me during online classes, so when i realized in-person classes would start again i relapsed immediately. 


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Posted 14 October 2021 - 02:09 AM

Honestly I’ve been trying to figure that out. But I’m two years into this shit again and I wish I knew why
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Posted 14 October 2021 - 06:58 AM

The girl I thought I was “the one” broke up with me and told me she hadn’t loved me for several months beforehand and just didn’t want to hurt my feelings.
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Posted 14 October 2021 - 09:11 AM

I started relapsing when tumblr started constantly recommending ED accounts, from the times where I was looking that content up, even though I blocked the accounts it kept recommending more, and I couldn't resist it any more as I'd been close to a relapse for months. I don't blame tumblr though, or any of those accounts, it was my own actions that brought me here. I've been relapsing ever since, it's been a long while.


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You are the angel that I couldn't kill

 

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 10:24 AM

making major life changes at once; I quit my job (actually walked out and yelled at my boss) and just moved. feeling gross because if I'd stick with restricting for more than a few months I'd actually be underweight by now.

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#93 Lovelybonespook

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 10:33 AM

Getting dumped.
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Posted 14 October 2021 - 10:42 AM

To piss this guy off and bc when my clothes finally came in they were too small
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Posted 14 October 2021 - 12:44 PM

The person who r*ped me 11 years ago was listed as a suggested friend on Facebook. Blocked his ass, turned off my phone, and here we are. 


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Posted 14 October 2021 - 03:02 PM

My boyfriend when he says " You're going to eat all THAT? You wonder why you have trouble losing weight." To me who has Atypical Anorexia and has struggled with restricting, binging, and purging since I was a kid.
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Posted 14 October 2021 - 03:06 PM

i started a new job and my manager is the same height and frame as me but everyone treats her so delicately bc her ed is known. she also wont shut up about her “losing 30lbs”. :/


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Posted 14 October 2021 - 03:06 PM

i started a new job and my manager is the same height and frame as me but everyone treats her so delicately bc her ed is known. she also wont shut up about her “losing 30lbs”. :/

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 03:08 PM

Long distance relationship + quarantine stress + parents rejecting LGBT sibling
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Posted 14 October 2021 - 03:21 PM

My family has been staying with me and my parent has always been very over weight. He constantly talks about not eating carbs as a successful diet (even though that only worked for him until he replaced the carb calories with added fat/ meat/alcohol calories) and wilfully ignores the fact that he fails to lose weight cause he's not in a calorie deficit.

Hearing him preach about nutrition while eating cans of processed meats/sausages is very triggering.

So I'm back to weighing my food and skipping meals again

Edited to add -- also got divorced and started a fairly high stress job, so there's that...

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