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#101 BohoBoohoo

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 03:27 PM

Feeling lost in the world and it scares me .Feeling like i'm not good enough and no one wants me. Being an adult is scary for me (i'm 31) The only way i can get people to want me is if i'm cute/fragile or sick
and that's messed up


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#102 Ryanrossisboss

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 03:33 PM

i wanted to start recovery bc i am getting to a point where i am not comfortable with my body but then i realized i was .2 lb away from my gw so.... back at it again 


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bmi: 19.6

SW: 108

HW: 136.2

CW: 103.6

GW 3: 120     (July 17, 2021)

GW 4: 115   (August 6, 2021)

GW 5: 110  (August 23, 2021)

GW 5: 105  (October 5, 2021)

GW 6: 100

GW 7: 95

UGW: 92

Previous lowest weight: 103.8 (2016)

New lowest weight: 103.6 (October 15, 2021) 

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Not that edible food -- the food you eat?
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#103 AllieBird

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 03:50 PM

DP

Monthly Weigh-ins:

April - 143 May - June - July - August - September - October - November - December -

27 | 5'6

HW: 152

LW: 123

CW: 139.9

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#104 AllieBird

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 03:51 PM

Feeling lost in the world and it scares me .Feeling like i'm not good enough and no one wants me. Being an adult is scary for me (i'm 31) The only way i can get people to want me is if i'm cute/fragile or sick
and that's messed up

Wow I'm 28 and I really feel this

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Monthly Weigh-ins:

April - 143 May - June - July - August - September - October - November - December -

27 | 5'6

HW: 152

LW: 123

CW: 139.9

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#105 JJuuh

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 04:22 PM

i measured myself and stepped on a scale
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18︱5'2/160cm︱125lbs/57kg

 

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Posted 15 October 2021 - 05:25 AM

gaining so much weight that I feel obese in my hot underwear

even though I know that I'm on the low end of a healthy weight and could be considered "thin" by normal standards


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Posted 15 October 2021 - 05:30 AM

Not being able to get the grades I want for a class, and in turn, feeling like I don’t deserve food because I use it as a reward/fuel for doing well. I still do well in literally every other class but one class has really been beating the crap out of me this semester and it makes my other achievements feel invalid.
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Posted 15 October 2021 - 06:36 AM

Gained 15kg from going on birth control & I wasn’t even binging. I CANNOT GET THAT FAT AGAIN. & I wasn’t even fat. Ive lost all the weight now but I can’t stop. I have to keep going. I have to be so skinny people are worried about me. Not in an attention seeking way, more of a validation way.
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#109 journeyTo100

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Posted 15 October 2021 - 10:37 AM

being told way too many times this month that I could be or try and be a model especially by other models, the fact that I'm only 5"5 and have a bmi of 20 just shows how much my weight is letting the rest of me  ( my face lol) down. 

 

plus they literally all made a statement along the lines of my having the face for it :/ 

 

just need to drop at least 15 lbs first 


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5"5

SW: 84kg/ 185lbs

CW: 54.5 kg/ 120.2 lbs

GW 1: 60kg / 132lb

GW 2 : 56.5 kg ( new LW) 

GW 3 : 55 kg ( BMI 20)

mini GW : 52 kg ( bmi 18.9)

GW 4: 50.7 ( bmi 18.5)

UGW: 96 lbs( idk) 

 

 


#110 Sweetsweetsadness

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Posted 15 October 2021 - 01:18 PM

My parents are divorcing and my whole life is changing so fast and it feels like my weight is the only thing I can control
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#111 BohoBoohoo

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Posted 15 October 2021 - 01:55 PM

Wow I'm 28 and I really feel this

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I'm so, so sorry you feel it, too <3


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Posted 15 October 2021 - 07:57 PM

I got really sick a few weeks ago (headaches, dizzyness and nausea) and went to the hospital twice (they couldn't tell me what was wrong). I got a referral to see a psychiatrist about ADHD, but I have to find the psychiatrist myself, which is really overwhelming. I also recently realised that I was sexually abused at some point between the age of 10-13 and that I am expected to celebrate christmas with my abuser. 

 

And I have a mini-vacation with my family in 4 days (we are going to a waterpark/resort-thing) so I am fasting until they make me eat.

 

*BONUS* I also reached a new HW  :(


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Height: 143 cm
Gender: Female

 

Diagnosis: Mild form of EDNOS/OSFED

(Read this in my medical journal and wasn't told about it face to face.

It said I fit the criteria, but nothing else, so I don't know if it's an actual diagnosis.)


HW: 65.5 kg / 144 lbs (BMI = 32)

 

LW: 41.8 kg / 92 lbs (BMI = 20.4)

 

Next goal: 60 kg / 132 lbs (BMI = 29.3)

 


#113 Sincerely-Skinny

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Posted 15 October 2021 - 11:48 PM

I mean I was already triggered bc of something that happened with my boyfriend, but the most recent.. My grandpa who raised me since I was a kid has cancer. Tonight, actually just a couple hours ago, my mom called me drunk. She kind of mocked me for saying I was sad, and I couldn't get out of bed. Now I just wanna push harder. I guess to show her like.. this isn't my choice like you say it is. The kinds of thoughts that I experience are toxic and ugly. It's not just "mind over matter" like she says. 


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Posted 16 October 2021 - 12:39 AM

estetician doctor called me ~robust~ lol fr
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Posted 16 October 2021 - 10:54 AM

New medication making me lose my appetite
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Height 160 - 5'3

HW: 57kg - LW: 43.5kg

CW: who knows


#116 c0ldbrew

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Posted 16 October 2021 - 11:57 AM

my new anti depressants made me gain 30 lbs in only a few weeks


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H - 5ft 3 LW - 104 lbs HW - 136 lbs CW - 132lbs GW1 - 120lbs GW2 - 110 lbs]

#117 SacredFaeriesrevengequest

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Posted 16 October 2021 - 01:07 PM

Last night I did my makeup and hair, put on an actual bra and a dress, and then strutted out in front of my boyfriend and our friend. Absolutely no male attention at all whatsoever and I looked like a whale, a blob... that is why...
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#118 sora7092

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Posted 16 October 2021 - 01:11 PM

Going to the hospital and getting weighed and realizing my BMI was overweight. I was just avoiding the scale for 2-3 years to pretend I wasn't gaining.  Needless to say that put me straight into fasting pretty much  25/31 days out of the month lol.


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#119 milzybabi

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Posted 16 October 2021 - 01:21 PM

mine tends to flare up in stressful periods so right now i feel so out of touch with my emotions that i fell back into it to get a grip on myself. idk if it makes sense. i like when it occupies my mind so i dont have to think about stressful stuff irl


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5'3

current : 60

goal : 45

 

highest : 72

lowest : 50

 

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let all that you do be done in love  

 

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