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Does anyone else has a fear weight

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#1 skinnyanabelle


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Posted 12 October 2021 - 06:36 AM

Does anyone else have a weight they are afraid to get to wether it’s lower or higher
I’m scared to get to 130 lbs because that was my starting weight
And I’m scared to get below 70 I’m not even close but that seems like if I get there I’d die
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Posted 12 October 2021 - 06:43 AM

Same, I'm scared to ever go back to my hw or even just over 120 lbs, and even though I'm nowhere near it I'm kind of scared of being 70-80 lbs because of health issues.

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 HW: 129  CW: 109  GW: 100  UGW: 95 



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Posted 12 October 2021 - 06:49 AM

It's 62KG for me

GW1:55.00kg | GW2:53.00kg | GW3:50.00kg 

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Posted 12 October 2021 - 06:53 AM

it was i could never go above 115, then 120, then 130, and now 140... thanks medication for making me eat and gain weight uncontrollably + drinking every night for two months for that :rolleyes: oh well, ill get myself back to an acceptable weight eventually

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eli, male, vegetarian, 5'4"

hw: 155 | cw: 137.4 | lw: 104 | gw: 100 | ugw: 90


im looking skinny like a model with my eyes all painted black.

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Posted 12 October 2021 - 06:55 AM

I'm pretty much recovered but when I catch myself weighing 58kg (on the odd occasion I weigh myself), I definitely freak out a little.

5'3 CW: 55kg


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Posted 12 October 2021 - 06:59 AM

i want to maintain at 55kg for a while but i have binged a lot lately and gained and my fear weights are 58 and ultimate fear weight is 60 i don't ever wanna go near that or cross that line. it's all mental i know

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      165 cm    5'5

HW    72 kg     159 lbs     26.4

LW    54 kg     119 lbs     19.8

CW    56.5 kg   124.5 lbs   20.8

GW    50 kg     110 lbs     18.4


#7 Thinchance


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Posted 12 October 2021 - 07:08 AM

My high fear weight is my recent highest weight.
My fiancée sent me pics of me dancing at my highest of around 135-140.
The images are engraved into my mind.
I don’t have a fear low, I don’t *want* to be less than 86 ever and I doubt I will so not worried anyways.

I fainted and went to an urgent care for dehydration recently, so I don’t think because I’m restricting that I’ll be in worse health than when that happened. I was really unhealthy.
Now I drink water and exercise more. I feel better mentally and physically compared to my binge “recovery” phase already and I felt even better than that at my LW.

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Posted 12 October 2021 - 07:09 AM

Yeah where im at right now or higher lol This morning i was 124.4 which is good because its going back down after a week of going off track. Good news is the 10 pounds i gained is comming of pretty easy, two days ago it was 130.6. But i dont want to be anything higher than 105. Flucuating between 105-115 is ok but staying at 115 no. But below 105 would scare me, if i was sick or something and lost a little thats not as scary because it happens. But once my weight goes under 100 my body starts trying to shut down with energy and stuff. Almost died at 80 pounds so thats why. Sorry if this doesnt make sense with all the rambling.
Hw-165lbs lw-80lbs cw-144.2 lbs gw-105lbs when I was 17 years old hw- was 210 but I was just giving info on hw for this time around.
Thinness equals success, never give up, never give in!

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Posted 12 October 2021 - 07:17 AM

For me in this moment my fear weight is above 70kg and ultimate fear weight is above 80kg.
I’m laughing though because when I first developed an ED (Anorexia back then - now EDNOS), I’d never weighed higher than 60kg and my fear weight was 55kg and now I’d kill to be under 60kg.
Bingeing is such a bitch.

Height: 170.5cm (5’7”)
HW: 84kg (BMI 29) - Overweight
SW: 73.5kg (BMI 25) - Overweight
CW: 66.7kg (BMI 23.1) - Healthy Weight
GW 1: 63kg (BMI 21.8) - Healthy Weight
GW 2: 60kg (BMI 20.8) - Healthy Weight
GW 3: 55kg (BMI 19) - Healthy Weight
GW 4: 50kg (BMI 17) - Underweight
GW 5: 44kg (BMI 15) - Underweight
LW: 40kg (BMI 14) - Underweight
UGW: 39kg (BMI <14) (I just kind of want to say I got into the 30’s but also I know that’s really dangerous!)
UGW 2: 30kg (BMI 10.4) - Underweight (Will never get here, it's too low, I'd die I think, but hm I wish I could say I'd made it to BMI 10, so fucked up)

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Posted 12 October 2021 - 07:21 AM

40 kilos is scary. 50 is unthinkable

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current BMI 10.7 [Jan 2021]


#11 lckosh


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Posted 12 October 2021 - 07:22 AM

I don't want to be above 50kg (I'm at 51kg post-'recovery' now so need to go down again') but I say I would NEVER go above 55kg, which I think was my highest weight.


Equally I don't really want to go below 45kg, but last year ended up down at 41 and that was when I decided to recover a bit, because 40kg was my low fear weight.


Just want to sit comfortably 45-47.5kg foreverrrr

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Posted 12 October 2021 - 07:28 AM

140 has always been a wakeup number for me, even with a healthy mindset. It was 130 but I got fat again so.. hoping someday 120 will be my weight ceiling! I'm losing again so I'll get there!

I didn't think I should drop below 100 at my height but my sister's my height and she looked fine under 100. She said she wasn't.. but she's more active than I am by far so she needs the muscle more than I do. I dont think I could get there anyways.
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Posted 12 October 2021 - 07:43 AM

Anything over 120. 110s or lower makes me feel very comfortable 

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height: 5'4/163cm

hw: 160

lw: 1o3

cw: 106

gw: 100

ugw: 95





#14 auralite



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Posted 12 October 2021 - 08:09 AM

anything over 105 lbs. i don't like how it feels on me

cw: 92 lbs


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Posted 12 October 2021 - 08:10 AM

>60kg is kms territory. I legit think this is fat.
<45kg is oh well guess I’m spiraling and don’t wanna stop even though I’m scared to shit territory
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Posted 12 October 2021 - 08:22 AM

I would die if I went over 200 lbs.

I would never go below 100lbs. I'm already underweight at 130lbs (my UGW).

(100lbs would put me in the BMI 13s)
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Posted 12 October 2021 - 08:26 AM

not anorexic but i do. it used to be 52kg when i was younger, now it's 60kg. i get nervous when i'm in the 58/59kg range and start changing my behaviours.

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Posted 12 October 2021 - 08:39 AM

120 and anything more than that is just devastating

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Posted 12 October 2021 - 08:41 AM

I’m scared to go back to my highest weight or 165, anything above that and I don’t know what id do with myself. I’m even scared to get above 145.

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Posted 12 October 2021 - 08:48 AM

Over 60 and under 48 gives me panic.

Height: 170cm
HW: 67kg
LW: 49kg
CW: 59kg
GW: 55kg (let's hope it stops here... hehe)

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