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Does anyone else has a fear weight


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#61 skinniest.bitch.alive

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 09:38 AM

anything over 52kg for me
nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 10:00 AM

150 pounds  or 68kg. I'm bordering it. I'm at 145.8 this morning. The second I see that number on the scale, I'm going to start purging lol


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Posted 13 October 2021 - 10:19 AM

Over 110. It used to be 105 but then I "recovered"
Seeing 110 in the scale definitely triggered a relapse though. I'm pretty short though. (5'2)

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#64 tuvstarr

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 10:23 AM

It's so ridiculous. Six months ago I was like 105 is perfect! I'll stay here forever! Then progressively I was like, huh, 103 seems way better! Wait no... 101 is actually perfect. Now anxiety and depression made me drop to 99 and now I am literally scared of going over 100 -_-


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Posted 13 October 2021 - 10:59 AM

40kg/88lbs - partially an OCD fear. I love the number 77 but I don’t function well at that weight. As long as I am in the low to mid 80s I am ok, otherwise I start to freak out.
I used to be afraid of being above a bmi of 13 but when I dipped lower my quality of life plunged and I got deathly sick so since surviving that I have loosened my rigidity around numbers, smashed my scale so that I can’t obsess on them anymore and just eat my safe foods and stick to my routine that I know keeps me at maintenance.
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Current BMI - 13.1 (Oct 23, 2021)
Goal: I just want to be strong enough to fulfill this life’s purpose before blowin’ this popsicle stand and hitchhiking to the next life… Whatever bmi that is, preferably in the 13ish range… That’s my safe place

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#66 Lovelybonespook

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 11:13 AM

I’ve never weighed more than 126 and to be fair that was my HW at a doctors office in the middle of the day with food and water in my stomach and heavy winter clothes on.

Anything over 120 is bad for me and under 110 is ideal. My GW is 100 though.
BMI: 16.6
CW: 106 lbs
GW: 100 lbs
LW: 95 lbs
HW: 126 lbs

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 11:27 AM

120 at 5’8.5” terrifies me and my team wants me higher than that!

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 11:37 AM

Not BMI 20 or over
And not under BMI 16

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 11:38 AM

I’ve been plateauing and fluctuating and dealing with edema and a few medical things. When I am up to 38-40kg everytime I will FREEEEEEEEAAAAAKK


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#70 The Loony

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 12:09 PM

Over 49,9 scares me
Still alive. Sorry 'bout dat.

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 12:11 PM

over 64kg i would lose my mind. i was stuck there for the longest time :/

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 12:18 PM

57 kg

bmi: 19.7

 

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#73 FallingAngel98

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 12:29 PM

I don't want to go above 130 ever again... I don't necessarily have a lw end fear weight.

Height: 5'1" female

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#74 Thegymbum

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 12:51 PM

I don’t let myself drop below 100 anymore. I’ve been at much lower weights for a large chunk of my adult life, but now that l’ve learned the hard way, getting into the double digits is danger zone and I know I need to cut the crap
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CW: 103lbs
LW: 72lbs
GW 2019: 95lbs
Ultimate: 88lbs

#75 dolliethin

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 02:36 PM

63kg, I've been stuck around those numbers for so long I refuse to go back!


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[5'6"/168cm]

[hw: 86 kg]

[ugw: 45 kg]

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#76 Lauren sp0

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 03:08 PM

35kg or more is scary but 40kg or more is when i would have an attempt to end it (im not even joking :( )

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 03:54 PM

When I was in recovery 111lbs was my "lucky" weight. Now in my relapse it's become my fear weight. I don't ever want to be above my lucky weight, I'd feel fat and also superstitious that bad things are going to happen to me.

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#78 passages malibu

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 04:51 PM

anything above 105lbs
current bmi - 13.3


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#79 gloum

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 04:58 PM

anything higher than my current weight lol

 

anything under 90 lbs also scares me. at 90 I'll be bmi 15 and I don't ever want to go lower than that


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cw 147.8

bmi 24.6
gw1 185
gw2 149
gw3 119
gw4 110
gw5 96

ugw 90


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#80 khazarmilkers

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 05:17 PM

I always try to make sure I never go above 130. If I see myself get close to that I restrict more. I typically maintain easily at 124 but it makes it too easy to hit 130 if I slip up so I have to restrict constantly.


hw : 140 lbs

cw: 121 lbs

gw1:  123 lbs

gw2: 119 lbs

gw3: 115 lbs

gw4: 111 lbs

gw5: 105 lbs

ugw: 100 lbs

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