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#101 skinnyDior

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 05:47 PM

140. i felt awful when i let myself get there. my body's set point is 10 pounds less than that, and i was trying to eat intuitively, but was shocked when i finally checked a scale. now the concept of intuitive eating is horrifying to me. 

i think if i got up to 150 i would actually try to off myself. 


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#102 SimsAna

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 05:47 PM

98 lbs is my fear

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 05:50 PM

literally the weight i am at now. ~130 lbs (im 5'6" for reference). i dont have access to a scale so im estimating but im definitely at my HW.

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 06:23 PM

I would feel terrible to gain a single pound back. I try to not care, but even benign upwards weight fluctuations can be emotionally devastating to me.

 

If I had to choose any weight as my β€œfear weight”, it would be 114 pounds, because that was my original goal weight and I’d hate to go over it again.

 

That being said, I’d also be quite upset to go back over 97 pounds (cutoff for underweight), or back into the triple digits.


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Posted 14 October 2021 - 07:31 PM

i have like habit where some HAS be at a 0,5,or 10s. for example if the microwave is at .03 i have to put it to 0 or if the tv is that 23 vol i have to put it at 20 or 25.

it's the opposite for weight tho... numbers that have that scare me weight wise. if i weight 100 I'm scared to get at 105 and so on but if I'm like 104 it's really not a problem

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 08:25 PM

108-110 


is this working : D <3

 

 

hw :130

 

cw :107

 

cw :103

 

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Posted 14 October 2021 - 08:42 PM

200 lbs, never again.

 

i actually would love to be 80 lbs or lower but i'm tall so it's never happening lol


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#108 Hanna94

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Posted 15 October 2021 - 03:12 AM

>50kg or <45kg

I feel best at 46.5-47kg even though I want to go lower, but then I feel extremely weak and it gets much harder to maintain/eat enough. The lower I got, the less I was mentally capable to eat even though I didn’t want to lose more.
50kg seems huge to me just because of the number. I know that it’s not but mentally I’m spiralling if I go over it (even if it’s only water weight/food weight)

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Posted 15 October 2021 - 04:00 AM

For me 42 kgs is fat as that was the weight at which my mom said I should watch out about what I eat. But back then I was also a lot shorter 



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Posted 15 October 2021 - 04:14 AM

for me, it’s anything over 120 (i’m kind of short so that’s a lot on me) and i try to avoid going to the 90s because that’s when people start to notice something is wrong

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Posted 15 October 2021 - 06:49 AM

Great now I feel shit about my post recovery weight after reading this, like genuinely the worst. Knowing I’m now at a point of being people’s worst fears of >50kg
Like I actually feel terrible
Sometimes this website is the most comforting thing but today it’s really not

I'm back again baybeee

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Posted 15 October 2021 - 07:29 AM

anything over what weight i am now :) nah but actually 105... dk why but i cannot go back to that time. i hated my life when i was at 105 so i'm not doing that again


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Posted 15 October 2021 - 08:21 AM

Great now I feel shit about my post recovery weight after reading this, like genuinely the worst. Knowing I’m now at a point of being people’s worst fears of >50kg
Like I actually feel terrible
Sometimes this website is the most comforting thing but today it’s really not

 

SAME HERE! like I understand where people are coming from, but seeing someone say they would rather die than be a weight that's way less than my current weight hurt in a way I couldn't even predict. Then again I know most of the people here would probably off themselves if they were my weight anyway. 


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