Do you ever feel like you've lost your chance to pursue something? And it's because of your disorder?
I dropped out of college at 21 because I was in and out of ED facilities. I didn't go back because my loans went into default and I couldn't get more financial aid. I spent a long time taking courses here and there at community colleges but never actually finished a degree.
I've wanted to be a doctor (surgeon, ideally) for a really long time but I dunno, I feel like 33 is too old to start. I finally got out of default because I consolidated and I started a surgical technology program. I would assist in operating rooms which is cool... but it just feels like a bummer. I worry it wont be fulfilling because it's not my dream, you know? I was thinking that once I start working as a surg tech I'd have the money for medical school and I could do both. But it's just so long.... and there's also internship and residency and ugh.
Also I want to have a baby at some point? And I feel like time is running out for that.
idk why I posted this, just wanted to vent I guess