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#21 Carrie788

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Posted 24 November 2021 - 06:53 PM

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SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


#22 Carrie788

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Posted 25 November 2021 - 02:55 AM

Still 205lb. This morning no chance, but I haven’t had any sleep hardly so it isn’t unexpected, it may take a bit to show. It’s just frustrating as I battled hunger last night not to give in and I am going out today as we are taking my mum out for a bit and I had hoped to allow myself some food but now I don’t want too.


SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


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Posted 25 November 2021 - 11:50 AM

I think you are doing a great job! All this while being a mom! I can't imagine how stressful this is! I think you should allow yourself some food when you go out with your mom today, yo =u dont have to go overboard, tell urself just that one meal while ur out and nothing else at home for the day. Don't fret about not having lost since last night. I had suddenly gained 2kg (I guess about 4lbs?)  in two days of which on the first day I had a very carb loaded dinner and on the second day I was in binge mood. But honestly I told myself its only food in the stomach, and because I eat little enough on the other days it will go away quickly. I just came home from work and weighed 3.9kg. So even though my weight peaked for two days in total I had lost 2 kg from before the binge. I know its hard to say "relax", but since I have relaxed my attitude towards  eating, I have a much easier time losing. Obviously I am still restricting but really, I am working on not being angry at myself for eating out of the order, and at least for me it helps.

 

We will both achieve the step from obese to overweight in not too far a future yes :D?!!!!


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My Accountability Thread :) 124kg going 88kg (Obese to Overweight)

 


 

Hahahhaha, we are humans and thus have feelings. That makes all of us beautiful with our imperfections. Your thoughts (mind) control your emotions so control your mind to control your feelings. 

 

 

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#24 rosehiptea

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Posted 25 November 2021 - 11:51 AM

btw. are your screen shots what the paid myfitnesspal looks like? can you adapt your calorie limit to below 1000 without it telling you its too little everytime?


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My Accountability Thread :) 124kg going 88kg (Obese to Overweight)

 


 

Hahahhaha, we are humans and thus have feelings. That makes all of us beautiful with our imperfections. Your thoughts (mind) control your emotions so control your mind to control your feelings. 

 

 

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#25 Carrie788

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Posted 25 November 2021 - 01:22 PM

I think it is the paid version currently but no, it won’t let me close them or it tells me off for not eating enough  ;) just says it won’t count it for a five weekly something, I’m not sure what the paid version does, I tried copy and pasting but it turned into a mess,  :P
 
I went out today and took my mum to get something she needed and started some Christmas shopping, so I allowed myself lunch, my mum wanted to get us all something and chose subway, so I had a chicken and bacon 6inch sub and a white coffee, I chose light mayonnaise, and onion no other salad ( it ends too big and I can’t eat it. So here’s my screen shot for the day as I’m off to bed, it’s 6.20pm here and I am Whacked  :D

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SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


#26 Carrie788

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Posted 25 November 2021 - 01:32 PM

I think you are doing a great job! All this while being a mom! I can't imagine how stressful this is! I think you should allow yourself some food when you go out with your mom today, yo =u dont have to go overboard, tell urself just that one meal while ur out and nothing else at home for the day. Don't fret about not having lost since last night. I had suddenly gained 2kg (I guess about 4lbs?)  in two days of which on the first day I had a very carb loaded dinner and on the second day I was in binge mood. But honestly I told myself its only food in the stomach, and because I eat little enough on the other days it will go away quickly. I just came home from work and weighed 3.9kg. So even though my weight peaked for two days in total I had lost 2 kg from before the binge. I know its hard to say "relax", but since I have relaxed my attitude towards  eating, I have a much easier time losing. Obviously I am still restricting but really, I am working on not being angry at myself for eating out of the order, and at least for me it helps.
 
We will both achieve the step from obese to overweight in not too far a future yes :D?!!!!


We will get there eventually! I am pretty pleased I can get in and do up my jeans without a hair band on the button which I haven’t been able to do for a while so the 14lb has had some effect already, that gave me a little boost. I am just upset with myself,that I have so much to shift. My daughter is a pickle, she drives me over the edge at times but she is also the one to catch me should I free fall. I wouldn’t be without her even though she drives me totally mad  :D

 

I would say home education isn’t an easy option, it’s demanding, it’s exhausting, and there’s no me time or quiet time which my autistic brain needs to process anything. I’ve been in one of my stress moods today struggling to cope with her but it’s exhaustion, pain and my body doesn’t seem to want to play nicely,so,I get frustrated and she is a defiant little soul, stubborn and blatantly ignores me  :P she’s a 7 year old with the attitude of a 17 year old  :unsure:

 

I really appreciate your support, I am sure we can kick,this weight to the moon. I only went over my absolute max of 500 a little so it was damage limitation, though I am sure I could have had plain chicken, no Mayo and no cheese stuff, but I then probably wouldn’t have been able to swallow it. It was tasty and I didn’t finish it, my husband had some but it was such a relatively small amount I added it anyway, I also didn’t have quite that many crisps but it’s easier to count a little more than risk underestimated numbers then complain when I gain for no reason 


SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


#27 Carrie788

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Posted 26 November 2021 - 05:56 AM

204 lb this morning, a 1 lb loss, it seems the loss has slowed so maybe I need to try harder somehow. Not sure I can cut my calories much further as most days I’m having next to nothing anyway.


SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


#28 Carrie788

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Posted 26 November 2021 - 06:39 AM

I just have to add I was completely bewildered and baffled by the TDEE CAlculator I tried to use recommended in another thread,  I couldn’t  to get it to think I could lose more than about half a pound a month and then it didn’t seem right, then I went to loser town and added in my fibres and by end of 2023 I would not just have disappeared I was in negative numbers which highly amused me. Small things/ small minds  :lol:  :lol:


SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


#29 Carrie788

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Posted 26 November 2021 - 03:14 PM

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SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


#30 Carrie788

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Posted 26 November 2021 - 03:16 PM

Above is today’s grand total if I sleep  now, it’s horrendous weather here, the wind is dangerously strong,  a building has collapsed very near us and it sounds like the wind’s going to take our damned roof and we have no insurance thanks to being broke. We have been down to my mums this afternoon as I forgot to do something yesterday. I’m finding I keep getting very hungry which is hard as I get so so close to temptation winning,


SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


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Posted 26 November 2021 - 11:25 PM

btw. are your screen shots what the paid myfitnesspal looks like? can you adapt your calorie limit to below 1000 without it telling you its too little everytime?


the paid version doesn’t let you change it below 1000 lol :( it just says it won’t give the 5 week think as OP said
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Age - 22
Height - 159cm/5'2
 
HW - 119.7kg/263lbs BMI 47.5 (12/11/21)
LW - 75kg/165lbs BMI 29.7 (28/8/16)
CW - 112.7kg/248lbs BMI 44.3 (21/11/21)

GW0.5 (lol) - 110kg/242lbs BMI 43.5
GW1 - 100kg/220lbs BMI 39.6
GW2 - 90kg/198lbs BMI 35.6
GW3 - 85kg/187lbs BMI 33.6
GW4 - 75kg/165lbs BMI 29.7
GW5 - 65kg/143lbs BMI 25.7
GW6 - 55kg/121lbs BMI 21.8
UGW- 50kg/110lbs BMI 19.8
Extra UGW - 46kg/101lbs BMI 18.2 (underweight)
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#32 Carrie788

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Posted 27 November 2021 - 12:22 AM

I am so fed up, I have gained back the lb,I lost yesterday, I don’t know why, I show the cals and what I consumed above and I haven’t missed anything, so it’s either water retention or the fact I can’t go to the toilet (tmi) or both. The miso soups salty, so may be a part of it. But I resisted food so much and I am still trying but I get disheartened and then want to binge on rubbish, must.stay.strong. I can be better


SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


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Posted 27 November 2021 - 01:37 AM

It definitely sounds like water retention or not going to the bathroom, but still, it’s always frustrating when the scale doesn’t reflect the effort you’ve put in. Just hang in there and soon enough you’ll see your efforts rewarded! <3
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#34 Carrie788

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Posted 27 November 2021 - 01:39 AM

It definitely sounds like water retention or not going to the bathroom, but still, it’s always frustrating when the scale doesn’t reflect the effort you’ve put in. Just hang in there and soon enough you’ll see your efforts rewarded! <3

Thank you, I hope so. It’s too easy to,get disheartened but Rome wasn’t built in a day as they say. I just will have to try and make sure my resolve stays strong. I’m battling against my meds which doesn’t help, but surely even I should lose at that calorie level.


SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


#35 rosehiptea

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Posted 27 November 2021 - 03:34 AM

Thank you, I hope so. It’s too easy to,get disheartened but Rome wasn’t built in a day as they say. I just will have to try and make sure my resolve stays strong. I’m battling against my meds which doesn’t help, but surely even I should lose at that calorie level.


Keep going, in a day or two you will most likely see a difference! Ah, I know how hard it is to not give in to a binge when it seems like the scale is not showing the effort you have put in. But keep going and at some point the pounds will keep on melting (and the fat anyway, also during those days on which the scale doesn't show a difference)
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My Accountability Thread :) 124kg going 88kg (Obese to Overweight)

 


 

Hahahhaha, we are humans and thus have feelings. That makes all of us beautiful with our imperfections. Your thoughts (mind) control your emotions so control your mind to control your feelings. 

 

 

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#36 Carrie788

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Posted 27 November 2021 - 05:21 AM

Thank you, we 

 

Keep going, in a day or two you will most likely see a difference! Ah, I know how hard it is to not give in to a binge when it seems like the scale is not showing the effort you have put in. But keep going and at some point the pounds will keep on melting (and the fat anyway, also during those days on which the scale doesn't show a difference)

are doing an emergency trip,to my mothers as her fence has blown down in the storms and her lovely res is girly likes to run off, the nature of the breed so she can’t let her,out for a wee even as she’d be off joys of rescue dogs, but she is such a gentle sweet soul, I’d told my mum let us know if there was any issues as she is currently unable,to,do as much due to an injury.


SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


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Posted 27 November 2021 - 06:10 AM

Stay strong! ♡ tbh + tmi but anytime I was backed up especially from meds it was like weight retention. The day it all goes back to normal I can almost guarantee you'll see the drop as long as u keep at it...

Sending much love to u and hope you do ok with that emergency run. If it takes too much out of you remember to get plenty of rest!
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Height: 5'4 / 162 cm
sw: 221 lb / 100.2 kg

cw: 218 lb / 98.8 kg -3lb/1.3kg

gw1: 200 lb / 90.7 kg
gw2: 180 lb / 81.6 kg

gw3: 160 lb / 72.5 kg

gw3: 140 lb / 68 kg
gw4: 120 lb / 54.4 kg

gw5: 110 lb / 49.8 kg

ugw: 107 lb / 48.5 kg

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#38 Carrie788

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Posted 27 November 2021 - 11:19 AM

Stay strong! ♡ tbh + tmi but anytime I was backed up especially from meds it was like weight retention. The day it all goes back to normal I can almost guarantee you'll see the drop as long as u keep at it...

Sending much love to u and hope you do ok with that emergency run. If it takes too much out of you remember to get plenty of rest!

THank you very much, I’m okay, I ate at my mums as I think she is starting to get a little suspicious, so had a bit of lunch, but I feel really unwell today, but that’s the third night in a row with no sleep hardly. The wind scared me daft. I didn’t have a lot but now need to calorie count! 


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SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


#39 Carrie788

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Posted 27 November 2021 - 01:13 PM

I am cross that I went over my intended limit today, I didn’t want to go over 250 calories. I’m pretty ashamed of my lack of willpower

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SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 


#40 Carrie788

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Posted 28 November 2021 - 05:54 AM

Okay, so another day with no change on the scale. I’m starting to get really confused, am I grossly underestimating a calorie in something, is there something I am missing that I can’t think of, is it my damned medications, is it me, is it water, food weight ( no b/m) is it a plateau, or am I just beyond hope.

 

Weight this morning 14stone 9lb - 205lb.

 

I have to try and figure what the doodle is going on, I know I ate a,lot more yesterday, but I hadn’t thought it was enough calorie wise to cause another day of no change. It could have been worse to be fair, it could have been a gain.


SW - 219 - 11th November 2021
CW - 195 current loss - 24lb
GW1- 199 - achieved 
GW2 - 189
GW3 - 179
GW4 - 169
GW5 - 160
 
UGW? Who knows.
 
steroid dose 24th Nov 10mg
steroid dose 28th Nov reduced to 5mg to see how I go.
 



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