I'm currently living with my grandparents with no way of rejecting my Grandma's suppers (not that they aren't delicious),and what really bothers me is not knowing how many calories are in each meal I eat.
I just feel like there's no point in counting all day only for it to be ruined when suppertime comes. It's stressful, it hurts, and I was wondering if anyone else has experience in this area.
I'm almost considering purging, but I've tried that a few times before and it's just not my thing. I need this control and I just can't stand how it's ripped away when I eat supper, I can't measure how 'big' or 'small' my portions really are- especially while trying to seem okay around other people- without measuring calories to stay within my deficit..
How do you cope?