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#1 morgan_m

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Posted 17 August 2015 - 11:10 AM

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ok, this is kind of similar to the "write before you bite" thread, and that's how I got the idea. I always wanted to write more than just the food I'd eat. I wanted to describe the binge with all the sensations  - to live it, in a certain sense. and I felt a bit out of place going into lengthy descriptions there, where most people just list what they'd eat. so I thought I'd start this, in case there are other people out there who want to indulge in some virtual binging. it really helps me when I want to binge. like now!

 

describe not only the food you want to eat but in which order, the sensations, the tastes, how you'll feel etc. and maybe even how you'll feel after realizing what you've "done" (then you can feel good about having avoided that  ;))

 

p.s. dunno how triggering it'll be to read other people's virtual binge experiences, but I guess it's not unlike looking at pictures of food online or watching videos of people eating. plus it's more about the experience of writing down your own binge anyway. 


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Posted 17 August 2015 - 11:17 AM

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ok, so right now I'd love to go to the kitchen and cut off a huge chunk of fresh, crusty whole wheat bread, tear it apart, spread lashings of butter on it and start devouring that, while grabbing the half-eaten slab of dark chocolate and alternating between bites of buttery bread and chocolate. mm. after that I'd cut another slice and another and keep eating until I feel warm and comfortably full inside. by that point, if we're honest, I'd probably be starting to feel some regret and slightly too full. I would want to continue then because I'd already screwed up, so I'd go to my dad's "secret" stash of sweets and eat the rest of the spelt-raisin cookies, two at a time, and then have a glass of milk. then maybe another slice of bread, and then I'd look for something salty. ideally potato chips if we have them. paprika ones. I'd sit down and stuff those into my face a handful at a time, the sharp edges cutting my lip and the inside of my mouth, feeling the sting of the salt. then I'd have a few more sips of milk and feel utterly disgusting. my belly would be huge and I'd feel uncomfortably full and really disappointed in myself. 

 

ok, back to reality! I'm here in my room, at my desk, I haven't binged and I feel slightly better. in fact, the thought of going to eat even one slice of bread is no longer appealing! :)


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Posted 17 August 2015 - 11:53 AM

I WANT RAMENS

 

WITH CHEDDAR CURDS IN IT

 

YEAH YOU HEARD ME 

 

Ramens are so magical, plus it's the only thing i can afford right now, but it's not even sad, ramens are better than filet mignon.

I would make a giant bowl with 4 pouches of ramens, and 3 bags of cheddar curds, and the cheese would melt and make that sweet ''squich squich'' sound between my teeth, squirting with saltiness and rainbow taste 


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Posted 18 August 2015 - 11:55 AM

I have a feeling I could come here every evening and just copy-paste my first post.. no wait.. I don't think I'd go for the fresh bread. right now I want... a few slices of whole wheat toast. the toast would be toasted twice on low setting (as if I had the patience), perfect crunch and consistency with the butter melting and a generous dollop of raspberry jam on each. then a few sips of wonderfully neutral, creamy milk. then I'd pour myself an obnoxiously huge bowl of crunchy granola with oat milk, go sit in the lounge, look outside and crunch away, enjoying the extra sweetness of the oat milk mixing with the sugar. then, I'd start to feel full and I'd have another bowl, do the same thing, enjoy it slightly less and already start thinking about the inevitable next bowl and be frantically adding up astronomical sums of calories in my head. crunch crunch. then I'd have a bit of dark chocolate and nervously pace around the kitchen opening cupboards, looking for something to change the taste in my mouth and make me feel better. something salty. maybe even a pickle. that's weird. then more carbs, some crackers with butter. some closing sips of milk and maybe a burp.  :P

 

ok. glad I haven't done any of that. I can just imagine the grossness of how I'd feel. *shudder*.. this is so much better. 


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Posted 18 August 2015 - 12:37 PM

I actually really love this idea, I am going to keep this thread open and post whenever I feel a bp coming on!


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Posted 19 August 2015 - 09:31 AM

I have the urge to binge now. so I've just had a snack the size of a full meal (will be adjusting my supper accordingly/ exercising) and I really want to eat more. there's a loaf of white bread that I've already eaten from and I'd love to just go back there knowing I can eat it all if I want to. that feeling of all those comforting carbs being mine to eat. now. *sigh*. I'd even do it slowly then, savoring it. the crackle of the crisp crust, the soft spongy center.. spread it with butter and take a giant bite. and more. and then have some honey on it. yum. so basically, lots of bread with butter and honey. then granola, for a change of texture, with oat milk, maybe 2-3 bowls, then milk chocolate! (if we had any..) yes, I'd looove some melt-in-the-mouth milky chocolate that tastes of childhood easters. if it gets too sweet, maybe eat some almonds and drink some milk. real milk. then maybe a slice of bread and butter to finish it off. 

 

ok, I kind of feel like I've indulged. now I think I'll go exercise a bit. 


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Posted 19 August 2015 - 10:33 AM

What I do is hoard recipes on pinterest. Many I would never intend on ever making. I just like to go though and look at all the pictures and pin them. Yes it always makes me feel hungry looking at them , but I'm always hungry anyway. This is my way of virtual binging. 


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Posted 19 August 2015 - 11:06 AM

What I do is hoard recipes on pinterest. Many I would never intend on ever making. I just like to go though and look at all the pictures and pin them. Yes it always makes me feel hungry looking at them , but I'm always hungry anyway. This is my way of virtual binging. 

 

I used to spend hours just going through recipes online. mostly baking stuff. and for fun I'd calculate the calories per cake, and then for different numbers of slices.. like 1/8, or 1/16 , or per cookie or whatever...


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Posted 19 August 2015 - 12:10 PM

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First I'd go to McDonalds and order two big macs and a large order of fries. I'd take off my shoes and socks, grab the big macs, open them up and shove my feet in and watch as I slowly side deeper in between those warm buns lubricated by that delectable creamy white special sauce, wiggling my toes against the melted cheese. I'd then grab a handful of fries and rub them around my solar plexus massaging that mineral I crave into my skin. But I can't stop there, I need more. I head to Wendy's and order a large chili and a two frosty's, chocolate and vanilla. I fist my hand into that warm bean soup in and out loving the gushing sound it makes as I quickly squeeze my hand open and closed. I then grab the two frosty's ignoring the glorious burning pain in my hand because I just fisted flaming hot chili and mix them together into that vanocolate swirl and splatter it all over the sides of my face. I let out a whooshing sigh as I lean back to rest in satisfaction of my handiwork. Except I have nothing to lean back against so I stumble and fall, hitting my head on the cool asphalt of Wendy's parking lot. The last thing I hear before I succumb to the impending darkness of my vision is the sweet songs of the birds in the swaying trees and a click of a phone camera. 


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Posted 19 August 2015 - 01:16 PM

First I'd go to McDonalds and order two big macs and a large order of fries. I'd take off my shoes and socks, grab the big macs, open them up and shove my feet in and watch as I slowly side deeper in between those warm buns lubricated by that delectable creamy white special sauce, wiggling my toes against the melted cheese. I'd then grab a handful of fries and rub them around my solar plexus massaging that mineral I crave into my skin. But I can't stop there, I need more. I head to Wendy's and order a large chili and a two frosty's, chocolate and vanilla. I fist my hand into that warm bean soup in and out loving the gushing sound it makes as I quickly squeeze my hand open and closed. I then grab the two frosty's ignoring the glorious burning pain in my hand because I just fisted flaming hot chili and mix them together into that vanocolate swirl and splatter it all over the sides of my face. I let out a whooshing sigh as I lean back to rest in satisfaction of my handiwork. Except I have nothing to lean back against so I stumble and fall, hitting my head on the cool asphalt of Wendy's parking lot. The last thing I hear before I succumb to the impending darkness of my vision is the sweet songs of the birds in the swaying trees and a click of a phone camera. 

 

 

hahaha, thank you for making me laugh  :D

I did not see that coming. (I did think it was odd to be taking one's shoes and socks off at McDonald's, but figured, who am I to judge people's binge fantasies..)


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Posted 19 August 2015 - 01:26 PM

First I'd go to McDonalds and order two big macs and a large order of fries. I'd take off my shoes and socks, grab the big macs, open them up and shove my feet in and watch as I slowly side deeper in between those warm buns lubricated by that delectable creamy white special sauce, wiggling my toes against the melted cheese. I'd then grab a handful of fries and rub them around my solar plexus massaging that mineral I crave into my skin. But I can't stop there, I need more. I head to Wendy's and order a large chili and a two frosty's, chocolate and vanilla. I fist my hand into that warm bean soup in and out loving the gushing sound it makes as I quickly squeeze my hand open and closed. I then grab the two frosty's ignoring the glorious burning pain in my hand because I just fisted flaming hot chili and mix them together into that vanocolate swirl and splatter it all over the sides of my face. I let out a whooshing sigh as I lean back to rest in satisfaction of my handiwork. Except I have nothing to lean back against so I stumble and fall, hitting my head on the cool asphalt of Wendy's parking lot. The last thing I hear before I succumb to the impending darkness of my vision is the sweet songs of the birds in the swaying trees and a click of a phone camera. 

 

 

Thank you for this; I think I peed a little


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Posted 19 August 2015 - 01:37 PM

It's actually quite satisfying just reading all your posts, I feel less bingey. Thanks :)


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Posted 19 August 2015 - 01:57 PM

It's actually quite satisfying just reading all your posts, I feel less bingey. Thanks :)

 

awesome, i'm glad :) 


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Posted 20 August 2015 - 06:20 PM

totally hoarding this thread for when I smoke in a few minutes

 

time to see if this can work on munchies !!

 

I hope that's okay


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Posted 20 August 2015 - 07:09 PM

I sort of feel like binging right now or at least indulging in food. I would walk to the dairy by my house (105 steps away - so bad its so close!) and I would get a rum and raisin ice cream since I've been craving that flavour for ages.

 

I would walk back past my house to the gardens since its so warm and sunny outside today. I would lick the ice cream as I went as it got all lovely and melty. Then at the gardens there is a lovely cafe. I would order a hot chocolate with extra marshmellows as well as something savory - maybe a piece of pizza (chicken cranberry and brie is my favourite). First I would eat two of them (one of each colour) and then I would scoop off the delicious milky foam and eat that, then put the other two marshmellows in to melt all deliciously. I would drink it all up and by then the pizza should have arrived. First I would smell it (I love smelling food) and then eat it using my hands - Oh the melty cheese would be so delicious. 

 

Fuck I bet I would be pretty full by then but if I would walk back through the gardens to the other dairy nearby and buy a hotdog with sauce. Fucking delicious. Crunchy fatty salty batter that goes perfectly with tomato sauce. I would eat that while walking back towards my house. As I would be passing the supermarket I would go in to get food for later. 

 

I would grab fish fingers and a packet of biscuits and twistie chips as well as a block of chocolate. 

 

Then I would come home and watch anime while gorging myself on the junky snack food. I would feel disgustingly full but a few hours later I could probably handle dinner. For that I would have instant mash potatoes, the fish sticks I grabbed, mixed veges and tomato sauce. 

 

Wow if I actually did that I would be so depressed afterwards! That did help satisfy me though and I'm glad I haven't eaten all that stuff today :D


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Posted 20 August 2015 - 07:41 PM

squirting with saltiness and rainbow taste 

I just made that dirty



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Posted 21 August 2015 - 01:03 PM

I just made that dirty

 

Jeez... I wrote that? Lol 


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Posted 21 August 2015 - 02:44 PM

Well I would go to the store and buy all these things before. First I would drink a sip of my Pepsi Max and then start devouring an uncrustable while unwrapping a cosmic brownie, and taking turns eating them. Then I would eat some of the muddie buddies, and actually I'll eat the whole bag. I'll be feeling like my life is over at this point. I'll eat my puffy cheese curls since I know I ruined everything already any ways. I'll have more Pepsi, and actually put some vanilla bean icecream in a huge bowl, and pour some Pepsi Max all over it for a Pepsi float. Yum. I would want to purge now, especially because of the fact that I ate icecream. But I can't because I feel too ruined and I purge too much and I need to stop..Reality check.


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Posted 21 August 2015 - 03:15 PM

I could really go for some juice right now. I was actually thinking of an excuse to go downstairs and drink some before I came here. Now I'm super glad I didn't. For some reason I always drink tons and tons of juice and I just feel so terrible after it. I feel like a waking water balloon after what I call 'juice binging'. I also wanted some slices of cheese. Mmmmm....
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Posted 21 August 2015 - 04:01 PM

my parents got some McDonald's (chips/apple pies) and some garlic mushrooms. Peanut butter sandwiches? Heck yeah omfg. Yes please. My mum also made some cupcakes and a cake. Why..😭😭



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