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Weird things that taught you how to lose weight


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#161 daintyangelxo

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 12:35 PM

I was at an English Festival at a local college with some of my 8th grade class and Laurie Halse Anderson was speaking (my all time favorite author), and Wintergirls had just come out and was available but I didn't know what it was about so I just bought it. I was so entranced by it that I finished it on the long car ride home. I had already major disordered eating but it was mainly binge eating and that book was how I learned to restrict.



#162 Misguidedghost13

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 05:35 PM

Googling how to lose weight. I was doing blogalites for a while and then stumbled on ED YouTube… went downhill from there lol

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#163 dolliethin

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 07:30 PM

In high-school we went on a beach trip and I took a picture with one of my friends and realized how fat I was. That night I googled weight loss and that's pretty much me. 


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Posted 13 October 2021 - 08:50 PM

I remember so vividly when i was 12, i had signed up via email for all those fitness plans that were all shit, and one talked about how stupid the ‘pro-ana’ lifestyle was. I didn’t know exactly what they were talking about, but one google search later, i stumbled here and i don’t plan on ever recovering (been there, tried that). I think that is what set off my ED (of course i was fat shamed all my life and didn’t have a positive relationship with food, but this is when i started to actively starve myself)

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Posted 13 October 2021 - 09:02 PM

my first admission to hospital, i learned what not to do, also watching others . Also when i was admitted i really found out how devious and sneeky and creative my disorder makes me cause of being on my own at home i never had to fool myself haha... in the ward i had to learn to fool the nurses. then i realised that was not helpful in a hospital because it takes longer to get out! so i put the damn weight on and got discharged , now im back to where i was if not more but much wiser on how to stay medically safer ... i wonder if the docs know that shoving people in hospital can teach EDs a better way to exist at low weights rather then force a cure. 



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Posted 13 October 2021 - 10:23 PM

I always hated my body in elementary school, but never really did anything. I remember not eating sometimes so I would have a flat stomach, but that's about it. I was very smart as kid, and eventually read Drinking: A Love Story. I loved the book, and began to search for more of the author's works. Little did I know that another book she had wrote was about her terrible eating disorder (the book is called What Women Want). That's how I found the eating disorder section in the library. I read everything I could find, and was shocked and fascinated. I began reading online about calories, laxatives, and ED behaviors of all kinds. I was probably 10 when I decided I wanted to be a therapist specializing in EDs. But my unhappiness with my body, I began using the techniques I had read about on myself. The summer before 6th grade was when I got a phone, and a new and private world of thinspo and pro-Ana became available. By the time 6th grade ended, I had spent a month and a half of my life eating 400 calories or less and doing "1000" calorie workouts twice a day because I knew that they probably only burned 500 or 250. I was 67 pounds and 15 pounds underweight. My mom barely noticed because I wore sweatshirts and sweatpants all the time, and I because had had such a big muscle mass to begin with that my legs were still shaped pretty normally. Over that summer, I gained it back and grew. But I hated it, so I started using laxatives and puking. I was 12. Now I'm in high school, and I'm never happy with my weight. I don't even know what to do anymore.

 

Are you perhaps talking about her book called 'Appetites' where she discusses Freud's question: "What do women want?" ?


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