I was at an English Festival at a local college with some of my 8th grade class and Laurie Halse Anderson was speaking (my all time favorite author), and Wintergirls had just come out and was available but I didn't know what it was about so I just bought it. I was so entranced by it that I finished it on the long car ride home. I had already major disordered eating but it was mainly binge eating and that book was how I learned to restrict.
Weird things that taught you how to lose weight
Posted 13 October 2021 - 05:35 PM
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Posted 13 October 2021 - 07:30 PM
In high-school we went on a beach trip and I took a picture with one of my friends and realized how fat I was. That night I googled weight loss and that's pretty much me.
"to be pretty is to be skinny"
[hw: 86 kg]
[ugw: 45 kg]
Posted 13 October 2021 - 08:50 PM
Posted 13 October 2021 - 09:02 PM
my first admission to hospital, i learned what not to do, also watching others . Also when i was admitted i really found out how devious and sneeky and creative my disorder makes me cause of being on my own at home i never had to fool myself haha... in the ward i had to learn to fool the nurses. then i realised that was not helpful in a hospital because it takes longer to get out! so i put the damn weight on and got discharged , now im back to where i was if not more but much wiser on how to stay medically safer ... i wonder if the docs know that shoving people in hospital can teach EDs a better way to exist at low weights rather then force a cure.
Posted 13 October 2021 - 10:23 PM
I always hated my body in elementary school, but never really did anything. I remember not eating sometimes so I would have a flat stomach, but that's about it. I was very smart as kid, and eventually read Drinking: A Love Story. I loved the book, and began to search for more of the author's works. Little did I know that another book she had wrote was about her terrible eating disorder (the book is called What Women Want). That's how I found the eating disorder section in the library. I read everything I could find, and was shocked and fascinated. I began reading online about calories, laxatives, and ED behaviors of all kinds. I was probably 10 when I decided I wanted to be a therapist specializing in EDs. But my unhappiness with my body, I began using the techniques I had read about on myself. The summer before 6th grade was when I got a phone, and a new and private world of thinspo and pro-Ana became available. By the time 6th grade ended, I had spent a month and a half of my life eating 400 calories or less and doing "1000" calorie workouts twice a day because I knew that they probably only burned 500 or 250. I was 67 pounds and 15 pounds underweight. My mom barely noticed because I wore sweatshirts and sweatpants all the time, and I because had had such a big muscle mass to begin with that my legs were still shaped pretty normally. Over that summer, I gained it back and grew. But I hated it, so I started using laxatives and puking. I was 12. Now I'm in high school, and I'm never happy with my weight. I don't even know what to do anymore.
Are you perhaps talking about her book called 'Appetites' where she discusses Freud's question: "What do women want?" ?
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