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body/muscle dysmorphia(?) vs anorexic tendencies: the ED civil war in my mind

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#21 ♡ Taytoe ♡

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Posted 01 August 2018 - 09:11 PM

I'm a little like this as well. My paranoia is more body fat. I want my body fat to be as low as possible. I'd go for a bulk/cut or lean massing thing perhaps if I could guarantee I actually was gaining muscle but in the end, too afraid of gaining fat instead of muscle. 

meeeeeeeeeeeee toooooooooooooooooo

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Posted 07 April 2019 - 09:18 AM

this is basically me exactly
i will binge like 4500 per day for 3 months while training upper body every single day then I will get really upset about the weight and cut to 600 daily for 3 months to finally like how the rest of my body looks again
then I will feel like I am too small in my arms and start all over again

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Posted 13 April 2019 - 08:39 AM

To clarify:

I have a horrible fear of my arms being weak and skinny and noodle-y like 99% of the females my age. I love my strong may think they are too strong but I love being able to do pull-ups, lift my body weight easily, and I love the structure of arms like in the picture (less muscular than that guy of course): rounded shoulders, extremely visible biceps when flexing.

At the same time I want a low enough body fat to see my chest bones and ribs, my collarbones and hipbones jutting.

I don't want stick legs--I want shapely, thin legs. And a thigh gap (which I have, but it's not huge)

This is close to my ideal-- https://www.instagra...gleisberg&hl=en

She is my ideal too. I guess about 17% fat? My fat distribution never lats me look like that, though.

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