I feel way to old to be here. I've had an ED for 25 years. How sad is that?? Therapy didn't help. I KNEW what I was doing was harming my body. I don't like to take unnecessary meds. Honestly, do I need any?? I just need to STOP STUFFING MY FACE when I get an emotion. Any emotion.
Reading the posts of the really young people breaks my heart. I want to go back in time and tell myself it's not bad to be you. I try to leave positive posts when I can, but as a former youngster, it's a moot point.
There are good and bad aspects to this site. I have found a lot more positive than negative. That is a good thing. Especially when my ED isolates me from my life. Every shred of support helps.
I wish the younger members could truly understand the long term issues that can arise. When you're a teenager you feel invincible and never think you're going to get old.
I made a lot of much needed positive changes in my late 30's (gave up ciggies, gained some weight, quit the majority of my substance use etc) only to lose 12 teeth just before I turned 40 due to a combination of damage from long term opiate use (which causes chronic dry mouth) and purging. And I am very pedantic about brushing, flossing and using biotine mouthwash etc so I always thought I was fixing any potential damage, you know?
I also have hip dysplasia and have had 3 major surgeries between 2012-2014 and developed stress fractures in my pelvis requiring bone grafts and extensive plating (15 screws and the entire left side of my pelvic ring is plated) and even with all that the fractures still haven't healed properly, so I have real issues with bone health and healing and now have osteoarthritis and chronic pain.
I remember when I went in to get my teeth pulled having a crying fit in the dentist's chair because I felt like all the positive changes had been for nought- too little, too late.
Sometimes even with recovery the damage we do is there for life and doesn't become apparent until we are much older and it is a very bitter pill to swallow after trying so hard to do the right thing only to discover the damage is already done
So I wish they could grasp the longer term consequences that EDs and other shitty coping mechanisms can have on your life, because they just don't. I guess in many ways you can't. Not until it comes back to bite you in the arse when you think you've turned the corner